Silly Kids.....

How is it, that kids who have never seen a "potato sack race" figure this out???

 They were totally in them, jumping on the bed .... it was hilarious!!  But as soon as I came into the room, they tried to hide them!!

 (Kaedyn holding up Pandy to block my view of him) ...

 It's a hand!!!

 ... and a HEAD!!!

ha ha ha ...

Oh and Kaedyn was doing some light reading while he was sick....

Stupid Illness ...

Nothing has really been happening the last couple of months...  I haven't been myself at all.

So for the past two months I have been fighting my illness pretty bad. (I was diagnosed since I was 16) I hit a relapse a few months ago and it's a pretty good one.  I haven't had a relapse this bad since 2003... so it's been a good long time.  With everything that my body is fighting health wise, it's no wonder that I hit a relapse brick wall.  My pills aren't working ... and the joint pain is bad, the headaches are getting bad, and the constant sore throat (like I have strep, but I don't) is really annoying!!   Not to mention ...

The brain fog is horrible!!  I can't remember s.h.i.t.  ...  I just can't...  It took me months to memorize my cell phone number (that's not normal) ... appointments are slipping my man.... I have to make sure I have stuff written down or ... it's gone in 5 minutes.  I usually have such a good memory.

Thankfully, I haven't forgotten any bombs to use against my husband....  cuz I have to win every argument ...  it's in the marriage decree...

So I'm going to the DR tomorrow to talk to her.  Hopefully .... we can come up with some plan cuz I don't know how much longer I can live with this.  I hurt so bad, I don't want to move :(

Wordless Wednesday ... It's getting Hot in here....

I have a story to tell....

Once upon a time, I had a very pretty cup...    After my separation from my ex husband, I wanted to buy something for myself, and when you haven't bought yourself anything in a long time, it's hard to talk yourself into buying something .... just.... for.... you ... especially when you live on a limited budget and everything is about the kids?

So what do I want?

I picked up this.... and that..... and put them both back.  I looked at clothes, and at that point, I didn't - but that would soon come (especially cuz I lost 50+ lbs during my divorce) 

Then I saw this cup....

C.R.E.A.T.E.

It said in pretty colorful letters ....

Under it read:

"Create joy, create happiness, and create the life you imagine"

Being a writer, a photography buff ... and a newly single mom ...  I thought, it's PERFECT ....

My Create cup is usually front and center on my desk, with lots of fun pens in it....  cuz, I love me some pens....

It represents me, who I am, what I want .... it represents the start of what was, my new life.  A life that lead me to the man I love dearly and a great blended family ....

So......... two months ago, about ..... when I found it in pieces thanks to either a baby :::cough:::Kaedyn:::cough:::  or a cat who likes the window behind my grandma's desk.....  I cried.  I really did...  I mean, it is silly ... I understand.... but it was sentimental and special....

And.It.Broke.

Bollucks!!
 Bulderdash!!
   CRAP!

Yep....... and no super glue.  Took 2 months to finally remember super glue!  And as I glued the pieces together, as best I could, to mend my creativeness, my life, my symbolic little friend....  I realized, other then photographs...  I haven't been able to be creative at all.  I haven't blogged, I haven't tweeted, I haven't WRITTEN ... and that's a big one, 2 months ago I bumped into this brick wall that I swear was a quadruply think brick after brick after brick after brick wall.... and I could get past it, I just couldn't....

And when I held up the freshly glued together piece of my life....   I took a deep breath, and wished all the blockage away .......

It was like I was gluing back the pieces of my muse...

I have been dealing with nothing but sickness in this house for the last couple of weeks....  me, the babies.... and me...  (Both of the babies were running over 103 this past weekend, it was a L.O.N.G. weekend... ) ... but a couple days ago, I opened up my most recent chapter.... and wala ... I figured it out.... I wrote a little bit, and then smiled...... and tonight, it was time to dance.... blog!!

I am back..........

........................................................................................................ I hope......