Today was a good day....

I am two weeks post toe amputation ....  I'm trying to catch up on the whole "Black Toe Saga  - Life and Death of Judith" .... Judith is my toe in case you didn't know.... the one that got amputated.  All those blogs will be back dated ....

Judith is gone. Now my fourth toe is in danger. Fourth toe is named Ruby.  My friend named my toe Judith and DB named Ruby .... but it fits because she's pretty red... long live Ruby .... And with Ruby in danger, my pinkie toe would be in danger too.  Doc G sewed Ruby and my pinkie toe (aka Lilith) together to create a better blood supply for the two toes as a whole... in hopes to give them a better chance to be saved....  So I'm naming the pinkie toe.... Lilith and at this point might as well name the rest, so how about Cecily and Eunis?

So this is how it goes....

1st Toe (big toe): Eunis
2nd Toe: Cecily
3rd Toe (middle toe): Judith
4th Toe: Ruby
5th Toe (pinkie toe) Lilith

So Judith succumbed to her infection and she was put to rest on  September 21st 2019.  She was cremated with the other hospital waste ... but at least she went out with some polish on her!

So Eunis has a cut at the base of the toe, on the bottom of the foot.  Cecily is just standing tall and strong.  Ruby - you can see is darkened a bit but it's not gangrene ... not sure what is going on totally but it likes to bleed when I clean it which Doc S says is a good sign...  but after taking Judith, Ruby and Lilith are sewn together ...

I feel like this is going to be a never ending story ... I'm pretty scared I am going to lose my foot in the long run but ..... ::: deep breath::: I am trying not to think about that ...

I currently have a big hole on the top of my foot where those stitches are... that's where the big pocket of infection was that squirted out like a freaking volcano and hurt like a .... mo'fo....

Today my foot hurts a bit .... pressure on Lilith and Ruby is really uncomfortable but it's especially uncomfortable and painful when there is pressure on Lilith....

Today I actually got chatty on Twitter ....

It was a pretty good day overall :D

I did watch Finn Road and IMO I think it was the best one out of the whole collection.  I was having palpitations because the evil was practically palpable ..... and I am usually working/doing something on my laptop and not ALWAYS paying complete attention to the TV and I didn't realize that someone else from Ghost Hunters (OG) would be called upon ....  and at one point Steve (Prozak)

(Of course I recognized him right here just by his profile....  I was like ...  is that STEVE?  That's STEVE!)

With that....... Goodnight....

I Got A Lot Done Today...

I got some blogs caught up on, I edited pictures, I did some calendar stuffz ....  I did a lot!! I caught up on some TV and some downloading...  I still have to finish setting up my Etsy shop though ...  but I will get'er'done.... 

HAPPY MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. DAY .....

In other news .....   Celebrity Big Brother (US edition) started tonight ......  there was a post "confirmed" list (leaked) and then the actual list of house-guests.  I'm going to share both, 

1. Natalie - Eva Marie - WWE ✔
2. Tom Green
3. Lolo Jones (Olympics - Female Runner) 
4. Ryan Lochte - if you don't remember who he is - he's a Olympic Gold Medal Swimmer - the one who had the scandal the last Olympic Summer Games (in Rio) 
5. Kato Kaelin (Nicole Simpson's guest house guest when she was murdered) 
6. Tamar Braxton (Toni's sister) 
7. Joey Lawrence 
8. Dina Lohan ✔   
9. Jonathan Bennett ✔   (he hosts like Cake Wars, Cupcake Wars, Food Network stuff, and he was in a few movies back in the day - like Mean Girls) 
10. Kandi Burruss (Atlanta Housewives, I guess she wrote Scrubs for TLC) 
11. Ricky Williams - NFL 
12. Anthony Scaramucci ..... aka the "Mooch" and he worked for Trump in the White House but got fired for swearing

ONLY THREE OF WHICH were on the list.  Personally, I am a little disappointed that Johnny Banana's wasn't on it.  I would have been Team Bananas all the way!   Although - at the moment, I'm kinda Team Lochte  ....  although I am a Joey Lawrence fan (have been for a long long long :::coughBLOSSOMcough::: time....) ....  so who knows... Oh and I really like Natalie's hair! 

Other interesting TV coming up or on right now....

SMILEY FACE KILLERS: The Hunt For Justice :  I AM SO EXCITED FOR THIS!!!  I have been utterly fascinated with this theory for many many years because several of these boys died in Wisconsin and Minnesota and such, in my area ...  and I always thought it was no coincidence.  I'm kinda obsessed with this. 

ESCAPING THE MADHOUSE: The Nellie Bly Story : I'm interested - but haven't watched this yet.  It's going to be interesting.

THE MASKED SINGER :  I thought this show was going to be stupid and suck so bad, but I was curious .... very curious .... and who knew I would love it so much!  It's crazy!!   It's soooooooo good!!

THE LAKE ERIE MURDERS : This is interesting ....  mostly a collection of mysteries taking place on, in, around Lake Erie ...  and I'm a sucker for the Great Lakes because it's where I grew up. 

ROBERT DURST: An ID Murder Mystery : Yeah, I need to know more about this psycho for sure!

SISTER WIVES : is returning ...  this season seems like it's going to be very very rocky .... 

RUBY HERRING MYSTERIES  : this recorded last night (one of the new series of Mystery Movies on  Hallmark Movies & Mysteries ... I'm looking forward to watching it but I haven't gotten a chance to yet.  ALSO there is another one coming with Lacey Chabert (LOVE!) and her All My Heart co-star Brennan Elliott ...  called The Crossword Mysteries, and I am REALLY REALLY excited for that...

EMMA FIELDING MYSTERIES: More Bitter Than Death :  This was supposed to air on Hallmark Movies & Mysteries on January 13th, but then it didn't...  I got a re-run episode (movie) of Hailey Dean....  and I was all like....  WTELF .... (what the ever loving fuck)  now, apparently, it's going to air February 10th ...  just to put it out there...  if you were expecting it the 13th... bad news, it didn't air... good news, we get to wait longer and it's coming ...  but at least it's coming and it's going to air... 

The Masked Singer: WEEK TWO *GROUP TWO*

HOST: Nick Cannon  JUDGES: Ken Jeong, Nicole Scherzinger, Jenny McCarthy & Robin Thicke 

This is WEEK TWO ......  the FIRST WEEK for Rabbit, Alien, Raven, Pineapple, Poodle and Bee to preform.

First Up:  RABBIT* vs ALIEN

RABBIT

HEIGHT:  5'11"
STRENGTH: Quick Footed

Week One Song:  "Livin' La Vida Loca"  Ricky Martin

THE CLUES:  "I am the Rabbit.  I spent most of my life on stage, but I was never alone.  Now I pop up here, and I pop up there.  Synchronized signing is my forte. It's like I've been training for this my entire life.  Preforming on stage, check! Preformed in a mask, check!  Have a voice, check check!  This rabbit is here to win and you better believe that the last mask standing is gonna be me."

The Objects:  First off, Rabbit comes out complete with a "twitch" and a straight jacket.  Clapper movie/tv/video thing.  Carousal.  "Pop up here, pop up there" multi rabbits popping up ...  desert...

Male or Female: Male

Judges Comments:  Ken: Insisting that it's an actor.  Robin: "I love the way you took one of the most famous songs and made it your own.  Definitely a real performer ....and the straight jacket, and the twitching, giving away you're a little different, you're an individual, you obviously have a sense of humor but I think somebody definitely who's been on stage many times before."  Jenny - says the clues were pretty good, Pop-up = pop group, boy band member ... maybe Boys II Men...  Robin says not Boys II Men, he doesn't hear the vocals of anyone in Boys II Men, Jenny says she hears the soul though and Robin agrees about the soul but definitely leaning more towards a Boy Bad...  Robin suggests maybe someone who is now preforming on Broadway.... Nicole is humming a lot and shaking her head in disagreement, she doesn't think this guy is a professional singer, and when she says this, Rabbit actually postures in offense.  Nicole says - the merry go round, it was all a bit dark a bit twisted, she's thinking a magician - she's thinking Chris Angel.  Ken says maybe more of a Donnie Darko vibe. He's thinking Jake Gyllenhaal ... like a committed...  "oh look he's still twitching now like an annoying method actor" Jenny and Robin go back to the Boy Band thing... Ken says it could be a pop guy like Lance Bass or Justin Timberlake ... Robin says that Joey Fatone is really not a bad guess...  Jenny pipes up saying it is not Joey Fatone, he's got a much bigger gut and she's friends with him

JUDGES ASKED:  Jenny:  "Mr. Rabbit ... are you in a band?" and Robin adds ... "or have you ever been?" 
ANSWER:  Rabbit answers ....  "Yes.... in a band."

GUESSES:
Judges:
Nicole: Chris Angel
Ken: Donnie Darko, Jake Gyllenhaal, Lance Bass, Justin Timberlake
Robin: Joey Fatone
Jenny: someone in a Boy Band

Mine: Joey Fatone, JC Chasez
DB: Corey Taylor from Slipknot

Cathy: Joey Fatone
Erin: Joey Fatone or JC Chasez

ALIEN

HEIGHT: 5'5"
STRENGTH:  Comes in peace ...

Week One Song:  "Feel It Still"  Portugal. The Man

THE CLUES: "I'm excited to be here because in my family anonymity is a completely alien concept. Growing up in the public's eye, my life was never really my own.  I let others define me but no one will ever control me again.  With this mask on, the tables are turned.  I see you, but you can't see me.  And now for the first time ever, the world gets to hear my voice, on my terms."

The Objects:  Wearing a sweatshirt that says "Don't talk to me"  Five alien's in a triangle.   Lots of shapes.... triangles and squares ...   there was a snake ...  a grid of 9 with five squares filled (kinda Brady Bunch ish with the two on the bottom looking up) .. pool with swan and beach ball....with desert/mountains in the background... palm trees

Male or Female:  Female

Judges Comments:  Robin: "Famous family" ...  Jenny: "used to being controlled"   Robin: Searching for independence."   Jenny "I think she's a model," Robin "Yeah, I'm getting like a Bella Hadid vibe right now."  Ken starts hitting on her.  Calls her a hot alien.  Nicole says that her voice sounded nice but she doesn't think she's a professional singer but then turns and says "I'm getting the whole oops I did it again vibes."  Jenny points out how one of the clues was how she doesn't like being controlled... so maybe someone who left a girl group?  Spice Girls.... "  Nick, "she hasn't broken this pose" ... and they say "well that's a model pose" ....  Robin says that from the way she moved and the way she danced, he's going to go with Bella Hadid.

JUDGES ASKED:  They were talking about family and her coming from a large family .....
ANSWER:  Alien says  "I have many sisters..."

GUESSES:
Judges:
ROBIN: Bella Hadid
JENNY: A Spice Girl
KEN: Kourtney Kardashion (after Nicole suggested a Kardashion)
NICOLE:  Britney Spears, Kardashian (Kourtney)

Mine:  LaToya Jackson, Kourtney Kardashian
DB: Kourtney Kardashian
Cathy: Kardashian or LaToya Jackson

Second Up:  RAVEN* vs PINEAPPLE

RAVEN

HEIGHT: 5'4"
STRENGTH: Empathetic

Week One Song: "Rainbow" Kesha

THE CLUES:  "All my life I've listened to other people's stories so now is my opportunity to share mine. I've always been a sunny kind of person an audience is something I've never had trouble attaining.  No one talks more than me.  But recently I suffered a tragic loss so doing this show gives me the chance to honor my beloved.  Being the Raven makes me feel like I've found beauty in the darkness.  Like a phoenix from the ashes I will rise up and find the light. So don't cry...baby.  This ones for you."

The Objects:  gate ...  shadow (male) beloved ....

Male or Female:  Female

Judges Comments:  Jenny:  "Cage on the head, Nick Cage maybe?"  Robin:  "Oh this could go to a wrestler, the cage - like a cage fighter"  Jenny: "Like MMA?"   Robin: "Talk show, no one talks more than me"   Jenny: "That sounds like a Broadway voice" ...  Ken says one word comes to mind - sincere.  Robin going on about how at first, with the cage, thinking she might be a cage fighter and after seeing the performance he no longer thinks that.  Raven says "I'm a lover not a fighter"

JUDGES ASKED:  Jenny:  "Have you ever hosted any type of talk show?"
ANSWER: Raven says "yes"

GUESSES:  Judges:
JENNY:  Sherri Shepherd
KEN: Sally Jessy Raphael, Star Jones

Mine: Ricki Lake <---- my strong guess.  Maybe Tamera Mowry-Housley

DB: LaToya Jackson
Cathy: Ricki Lake

PINEAPPLE

HEIGHT:  6'1"
WEAKNESS: Ripens Quickly

Week One Song:  "I Will Survive" Gloria Gaynor

THE CLUES:  "Aloha Dudes!  I have become the Pineapple because like me they are fun, tropical and go well with ham.  Although I look happy now, I've gone through some dark times. After beating a life threatening disease, this O.G. has decided to take things as it comes and never wipe the smile off my face.  Though I've been in the public eye for decades, I've always dreamed of being a singer. So consider this a check off my bucket list.  Life is short man, you gotta seize the day before your dreams go up in smoke."

The Objects:  Pink Cadillac, Ying-Yan (air freshener), Hula girl on the dash, bumper sticker that says "Pipe Dream" and license plate from "Pure Michigan" that says 52438T

Male or Female:  Male

Judges Comments:  Jenny: "Is it Chris Pine?"  Robin: "Yeah Chris Pineapple"  One of them (Ken I think) says "this Pineapple smokes pot" ...  Robin says he's has a feeling he's not a professional singer,  Ken says he has a Matthew McConaughey vibe.  Jenny "Maybe a comedian, he's funny"  Nicole "Adam Sandler vibes...." ... Jenny: "I'm thinking more stoner like Willie Nelson, who else is a stoner? Cheech or Chong but Cheech"

GUESSES:
Judges:
KEN: Matthew McConaughey
JENNY: Cheech or Chong
NICOLE: Adam Sandler

Mine:  zero idea ....
DB:  No idea...
Cathy: zeeeeeeerooooo guesses ....

Last Up:  POODLE vs. BEE*

POODLE

HEIGHT: 5'5"
WEIGHT: Fluctuates

Week One Song: "Heartbreaker" Pat Benatar

THE CLUES: "Ever since I was a little girl, I've loved to be on stage and take on a character.  Which is why I've chose the Poodle, because like me, they are sassy, smart, and best in show.  I come from a musical family, but I'm known for a different kind of talent. (4-1-5 <-- I thought she said, but I think it's ...)  But once I STAND UP!  My whole career has been about exercise my right to free speech.  But it's time to return to my musical roots to show the world a side of me it's never seen before. To figure me out you're gonna have to WOOOOORK!"

The Objects:  San Francisco (Bay area) <-- funny side note, I thought she said "4-1-5-stand-up" in the clues, 415 is the area code for San Francisco, hand weights (maybe exercising guru? Like Jane Fonda?)  Rainbow = LGBTQ community ....

Male or Female: Female

Judges Comments:  Nicole: She's got a hot body.... Jane Fonda?  Jenny:  She's clearly a performer that's comfortable on stage."  Ken complimented her on her stage presence, how everything clicked and it was really good.  Nicole was feeling the rainbow pride vibes. So she thinks it's someone part of the LGBTQ community ...  Jenny says she was thinking Ru Paul.  She also said she liked to make people laugh so there could be a stand up component.   San Francisco, Bay area, 4-1-5 area code, comedian .... it could be....  Ali Wong.  Robin noticed the exercise references and brought them out.  Ken says "was it fitness or 80's?"  Jenny shouts "Richard Simmons!"   After the "I'm here for your honor" comment, they are thinking law connected... Ken goes "I got it! Chief Justice Ruth Bader Ginser in the house!"

JUDGES ASKED:  "Give us another clue..."
ANSWER:  Poodles says: "I'm here for your honor"

GUESSES:
Judges:
NICOLE: Jane Fonda
KEN: Chief Justice Ruth Bader Ginser
JENNY: Ru Paul, Ali Wong, Richard Simmons

Mine:  Margaret Cho, Kathy Griffin...
DB:  No idea
Cathy: Margaret Cho

BEE

HEIGHT: 5'4"
STRENGTH: Hard Worker

Week ONE Song:  "Chandelier" Sia

THE CLUES:  "In my long career I've flown to soaring heights.  And I've never wanted to stop doing what I love.  Being a worker bee keeps me young! You can call me Queen Bee but Empress also suits me.  Coming on this show I'm looking forward to singing to a new generation.  I want to see for myself that I still got what it takes to create a buzzzzzz, even behind a mask.

The Objects: (nothing really significant)

Male or Female: Female

Judges Comments: Professional, Seasoned, Mature singer.

JUDGES ASKED:  "We can narrow this down a bit, we feel you are a professional singer, what decade did you start singing?"
ANSWER: Bee:  "Fifties."

GUESSES:
Judges:
JENNY: Mary J. Blige, Lil' Kim
ROBIN: Diana Ross
Audience; "DION WARWICK"   (Nicole repeated)

Mine:  Dion Warwick? Gladys Knight 

DB: Gladys Knight.
Cathy: Gladys Knight

The Masked Singer: WEEK ONE

HOST: Nick Cannon  JUDGES: Ken Jeong, Nicole Scherzinger, Jenny McCarthy & Robin Thicke


FIRST UP!  Peacock* VS. Hippo

THE PEACOCK

HEIGHT: 5'9
WEAKNESS: Craves Attention

Week 1: Performed "The Greatest Show" from The Greatest Showman <--- Really good!

THE CLUES: 
"I chose to become the Peacock because we both share a love for the spotlight.  When I was 5 years old I walked onto a stage for the first time, and ever since then, I was hooked! Putting on a show is in my DNA. But it's probably been awhile since your mom has had a poster of me on her bedroom wall!  And like my dear friend Michael Jackson once told me, if you are going to reinvent yourself, you have to become someone the world has never seen before.  It's never too late for this showman to make a comeback!"

The Objects:
playing piano, cards, ceramic/plastic dog

Male or Female:  MALE

Nick said "You got style too, I was gonna steal those shoes... I'mma holler at you later"

Judges Comments:
Nicole: Voice is like butt'ah.... mature voice.... impressed
Robin: He's a trained performer, professionally trained performer and been performing for many many years ....
Ken:  Joked it's a woman
Jenny:  Suggests it's Huge Jackman
Robin: Huge is like, 6'5

JUDGES ASKED: "Have you ever been part of a magic act and could you have been mauled by a tiger?"
PEACOCK ANSWER: "I have never been mauled by a tiger .... but I have been part of a magic act."

GUESSES:
Judges:  Huge Jackman, Zac Efron, Jimmy Kimmel, Teller (from Penn & Teller)

Mine:  Donny Osmond  <---- He is 5'9  ....  maybe David Hasselhoff (probably not, he's 6'4)
Cathy: Wayne Newton or Donny Osmond
Melzie: Donny Osmond
Ashley: Adam Devine (from Pitch Perfect)

THE HIPPO

HEIGHT: 5'10
STRENGTH: Unpredictable

Week 1: Performed "My Prerogative"
Week 1: UNMASKED

THE CLUES:  "Breakfast is the most important meal of the day for a competitor like me.  After all I need my strength. I'm one of the most dangerous animals in the kingdom.  I'm used to preforming in a mask in front of thousands of screaming fans. Every time I win, I just gotta dance, even if it gets me in trouble!  Hippo's got game, but I also have a voice, people just haven't heard it yet.  I concur every arena that I enter, and this one won't be any different.

The Objects:  Diner, pancakes, gold chains, $10,000 Bill, Orange Juice, Jukebox, Bat, Junkyard Car, Playground

Male or Female:  MALE

Judges Comments:
Nicole:  He's got moves (good dancer)
Robin: Not a trained singer, but you got moves.  I am thinking athlete
Ken: Gangsta ... Athlete, Charasmatic
Jenny:  Yeah I'm feeling that
Nicole: I'm thinking Basketball ....

JUDGES ASKED:  Are you a Basketball player?
ANSWER:  "My favorite pastime is bowling"

GUESSES:
Judges: (Robin) Odell Beckam Jr.  (Ken, Jenny) Deion Sanders (Nicole) Allen Iverson
Mine: (None and got Unmasked)


Second Up:  MONSTER vs. UNICORN*

THE MONSTER

HEIGHT: 5'8
WEAKNESS: Misunderstood

Week 1: Performed "Don't Stop Me Now"  <--- really good

THE CLUES:  "I am the monster because that's what the world labeled me.  I'm here to rewrite my "mixtape" to prove I'm more than just "puff and fluff."  I was the top of my game, but the game turned on me.  So I retreated into my cave.  Took a break from the public eye.  But now I'm here to set the record straight!  And show the world that no one can stop me from what I love.  So stay tuned, cuz this monster is BAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDD."

The Objects:
fan, cave, dance lights, upside down, boombox

Male or Female:  MALE

Judges Comments:
Ken: Professional signer
Jenny: Totally shocked
Robin: I wasn't expecting much from the monster because it's furry, and fuzzy, and sweet.... the voice was soulful
Nicole: I just want to squeeze you, playful performance, and I heard some soul
Robin: Absolutely, I could tell by the vocal tone that it was a mature voice, doesn't sound like a young person to me
Robin: I'm stumped because the voice is throwing me cuz it's so mature but he moves very young....
Nicole: I can't wait to find out who you are

JUDGES ASKED: Are you a professional singer?
ANSWER: "Not to everyone"

GUESSES:
Judges: (Jenny) P-Diddy, (Nicole) Gucci Mane, (Ken) Justin Bieber
Mine: Chris Brown maybe Cee-Lo
DB: Not Cee-Lo
Melzie: Chris Brown (but thought he was a better singer)

THE UNICORN

HEIGHT:  5'6
STRENGTH: Made of Magic

Week 1: Performed "Fight Song"  <- good job

THE CLUES: "Here's the story, of how I became the Unicorn.  My childhood should have been magical.  I grew up in one of the ric hest neighborhoods (Beverly Hills)...  and when I was little, I dreampt of singing.  But someone I admired told me I was tone-deaf.  All my life, people told me I wasn't worthy.  I'm not going to listen to them any longer.  No one is going to tell m e who I can or can't be.  By putting on this mask I'm showing myself, and the next generation of unicorns, that true magic comes from within.  All you have to do is believe.

The Objects:  Book, mirror, "You can't fly," "Your sparkle is distracting,"  "You're horn is too short!" .... 'You are Free" "You are Sparkle"  "You can fly"  "You are beautiful."

Male or Female:  FEMALE

Nick said "Definitely a special and rare performance!"

Judges Comments:
Nicole:  It's someone older and who's not a singer....

JUDGES ASKED: Nicole says "I don't know who you are at all"
ANSWER:  Unicorn responds "They call me Bird"

GUESSES:
Judges: (Robin) Linsey Lohan, (Jenny) Paris Hilton, Ireland Baldwin

Mine: Tori Spelling, Paris Hilton... mostly Tori Spelling
Mary: Lady Gaga, Katy Perry
Ashley: Tori Spelling 

Third Up:  DEER vs LION*

THE DEER

HEIGHT: 6'3
STRENGTH: Longevity

Week 1: Performed "Thunder"  <---- sings very well

THE CLUES: I chose the deer because they are incredible competitive.  I always considered myself a singer, not sure everyone will agree with that.  I think it's hard for people to get past who I am and what I'm known for.  Being under the mask, people will finally hear my voice. I've been knocked down many a times.  But in the Wild Wild West, you learn how to get back up and get back in the saddle.  RAVENS BEWARE!  I'm here to win.

(Dark hair, DB says, I saw the scruff of his neck)

The Objects:  fan, FOOTBALL trophy shown twice, antler shine,  arms upward outstretched, taping up the antlers.

Male or Female:  MALE

Judges Comments:
Nicole:  I love the way you came out, you took the stage like an OG, you came out like a warrior
Robin: Sounds like an athlete or a wrestling

JUDGES ASKED:  He said he was from the Wild Wild West right?
ANSWER:  Deer replies .... "Ah....  I love horses"

Robin: That's the biggest jokey in the world....
Ken: Maybe he's associated with a team with a horse....
Robin: Maybe he's a Denver Bronco

JUDGES ASKED:  Do you currently play or have you ever played in the NFL
ANSWER: Deer replies .... "I will have to take the 5th on that..."

Judges:  That's a YES!

GUESSES:
Judges: (Robin) Stone Cold Steve Austin, (Jenny) Chuck Liddell (Nicole) Payton Manning

Mine: Payton Manning
DB & Me: Jon Elway JR.
DB: Terry Bradshaw
Cathy: Payton Manning
Melzie: Payton Manning 

THE LION

HEIGHT: 5'6
STRENGTH: Noble

Week 1: Performed "A Little Party Never Killed Nobody"

THE CLUES:  "I'm the Lion and I'm here to roar.  This is my chance to see me preform without any preconceived notions of who I am.  Some may say I'm Hollywood Royalty but now I'm standing on my own. And I'm stepping away from my Pride to sing my heart out. I don't see a lion as just brave and courageous, true strength comes from embracing all your vulnerabilities.  So here I am behind this mask, and I am going to show my true self for the very first time."

The Objects: throne, gold, lots of bling, mirror, cape....

Male or Female:  FEMALE

Judges Comments:
Robin: The minute she walked out on stage, her posture was perfect, her legs were in front, she shook her hips right on time, that's well trained...
Nick:  You with the hips
Ken: I have said it before, but .... Robin stop hitting on the livestock!
Jenny: If you aren't a musical artist then you "Lion" cuz that was unbelievable
Robin: The Hollywood Royalty, I could see where you can get the talent from, I don't know where to categorize you ... are you a singer cuz you sound like a singer, but the way you were strutting could be a model/actress who was trained to sing?
Jenny: I mean she said "pride"
Nicole: Yeah she said she wanted to separate from her pack
Jenny: See I'm thinking a girl group
LION SAYS:  Well in my pride, there are loooots of women
Jenny: Maybe Pussycat Dolls
Nicole: No if it were someone in my group I'd know
Robin: Fifth Harmony vibe ... it's a girl group that's recently disbanded ....
Jenny: What about Destiny's Child
Robin: Yeah the way she walked out she had that power thigh Beyonce walk like Michelle Williams or Kelly Rowland.... but I would have recognized a voice from Destiny's Child....

GUESSES:
Judges: (Jenny) Lady Gaga (<- Nicole mentioned her first), (Robin) a Fifth Harmony Girl, (Jenny) Michelle Williams or Kelly Rowland ...

Mine: Rumer Willis <-- my #1 guess, Kardashian (maybe Khloe)
Amanda: Christina Aguilera
Melzie: Paris Jackson or Priscilla Presley
Mary: Nicole Ritchie or Rumer Willis
Mom: Paris Jackson
DB: Rumer Willis or Zoe Saldana

Funny Story: How Calahan Got His Name.....

The beginning of the blog is going to be a bit.....  serious.  The funny story isn't until the end of this.

I distinctly remember sitting in the little TV nook with my mom, seeing on TV, about this little boy named Adam being kidnapped from the SEARS store in Hollywood, FL.  That his mom was in another department and had let six year old Adam watch a group of boys playing a video game.

Adam was taken, his mother, Reve, was terrified, and Adam's story became the first really well known case of it's kid.  Yes, other kidnapped children had made headlines before, but mostly ransom cases and cases that didn't make families feel like ....  THIS could HAPPEN to THEM ....

Adam's case certainly made families feel as if .....  this COULD happen to them....  this was a regular family, in a regular Sears store ....

Reve Walsh was running errands on July 27, 1981 and had her son Adam with her. She was also pregnant with Meghan at the time.  They stopped at the mall and went into Sears.  There was a group of boys that was playing a video game and six-year-old Adam stopped to watch them, so Reve let him stay there to watch while she ran to the lamp department quick.  She wasn't gone but 5 maybe 10 minutes and when she went back, all the boys were gone - including Adam. Turned out a  teenage security guard had kicked all the boys out and so Adam was outside the store without his mom knowing.  Reve panicked, of course, not being able to find him and a search started for Adam. 

Sadly it was too late.  Someone had already snatched Adam up. 

** A note here.  When a child is missing in a store, they now call a "CODE ADAM" which alerts the staff to lock down the store until a full search is competed.   The term "CODE ADAM" was inspired by Adam Walsh and his story.

Of course, when John Walsh found out, he and Reve did everything they could do and could think of in order to try to find Adam and bring him home safely.  John found himself frustrated that they couldn't seem to get the news out faster and better than what was happening. 

Adam’s parents launched a massive hunt for their son; however, on August 10, 1981, his severed head was discovered by two fishermen in a drainage canal in Vero Beach, Florida, some 100 miles from Hollywood. His body was never found.

When all this happened, when Adam was kidnapped, I had just turned 5 years old.  I was around the same age as Adam and it was scary. 

The image of the little boy with his bat haunts me....

Anyway - there was a made-for-TV movie about Adam's kidnapping, and finding his head, and the horror of it all.  I remember little sister Meghan being born in the movie (dramatization not the real birth) and feeling hope for them.  But I was just a little kid. 

There was a second movie released.  "Adam's Song Continues" and it was about the first movie being on TV. It was about John's new passion - he was battling hard for missing children and finding ways to make it more effective to get the word out when a child is missing.  It was about him starting the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children.  At the end of the movie, Reve and John's third child is born.   Before I get to all that though .... let me finish this....

John and Reve Walsh has done some amazing things.  The Walsh's turned their grief into action, John Walsh quickly became a nationally recognized leader in the push for victims' rights.

In 1987, FOX contacted John about hosting a groundbreaking new reality show designed to track down the country's most notorious and dangerous fugitives.  By using tools like profiling the criminals, then sharing their cases to a national audience. The show was called America's Most Wanted and using it as his catapult for finding justice, John felt satisfaction in the fact that he could now bring some sort of closure that he had never found by bringing some sort of justice to other victims of violent crimes.



Ottis Toole, the prime suspect in the murder of Adam was never charged with the case due to lack of evidence.  He confessed to it, knew some details that hadn't been released to the public, but there were things in his confession that definitely were not true also.    Then he recanted his confession only to later confess again and recant again. 

Ottis Tool never was charged.  He died in prison while he was serving a life sentence for other crimes, including murder.  He and his partner, Henry Lucas, had traveled around on a killing spree.  Although in the initial confession, Ottis Toole said that Henry was involved in Adam's murder, Henry had been in jail at the time and there really isn't any better alibi than that.   This is one of the reasons the police weren't sure if they could "trust" his confession.  But Ottis Toole did know many key things that only the murderer would know ...  so there was some confusion. 

Sadly, without Adam's body, and with-out more evidence, the DA at the time didn't feel he could arrest and try Ottis Toole for the murder of Adam Walsh.  However; in 1996 when O. Toole was on his deathbed - he did make a deathbed confession saying that he had, indeed, murdered Adam Walsh. 

In 2008 - in December - after reviewing the case more, they (the police) determined there was substantial evidence to - enough - to name Ottis Toole as the murderer of Adam Walsh.  Case Closed. 

But is it?  Even thought this has been the long time theory - and the strict belief of John and Reve Walsh, that Toole is guilty....  there are other theories out there.  One includes Jeffery Dahmer and the fact that he was in Florida, in that area, at that time.  It's interesting giving what he would end up doing. 

John has done and accomplished some amazing things in his life.  All in the name of Adam....

• John has testified before Congress and state legislatures more than 55 times on crime, missing children and victims' issues.
• John and Revé worked for the passage of the Missing Children Act of 1982. 
• The Walsh's hard work and determination helped to pass the Missing Children's Assistance Act of 1984,
• which created National Center for Missing and Exploited Children (NCMEC). NCMEC now serves as the national clearinghouse for information on missing children and the prevention of child victimization.
• Revé Walsh serves on the NCMEC Board of Directors.
• John serves on the Board's Chief Executive Officers Council and National Advisory Board, and acts as a NCMEC spokesperson.
• John is currently advocating a Constitutional Amendment for victims' rights.
• The Adam Walsh Child Protection and Safety Act is a federal statute that was signed into law on July 27, 2006, and adds guild lines for Sex Offenders on the Sex Offender Registry.

He has also had a hand in helping to pass or supporting other laws that the parents of other missing and murdered children had fought for - like Katie's Law and the Amber Alert System. 

John has been honored by law enforcement agencies around the country.

• 1988 US Marshals Man Of The Year award.
• 2000 FBI Man of the Year award.
• A Special Recognition Award by the US Attorney General—the only private citizen ever to receive this honor.
• Honors in the Rose Garden at The White House, four times by three presidents: Clinton, Bush (Sr.), and Reagan (twice).

John is also the author of three best-selling books, including Tears of Rage (1997), No Mercy (1998), and Public Enemies (2001).

The man is certainly one of my heroes ...  truly.  The way he took on the death of Adam and did so much good with it - and CONTINUES to do so much good with ... it's amazing. 

The John Walsh Family: Callahan, John, Meghan, Reve, and Hayden.

So here comes the funny story .......  

So while I was pregnant ....  we had picked out the name Caleb Bryce.  For some reason that name - in my ex husband's head - Caleb Bryce was too "feminine" for him ....  so I had to go on the hunt for another name and I wanted an Irish name...

So I was on bedrest at that point ... laying on the couch watching VHS movies we had taped off TV.  One of them was "Adam's Song Continues"  and at the end of the movie John and Reve's third child is born and they named him Callahan Adam Walsh .... and I thought, ooooooooh Callahan .... I like Callahan ...

So I wrote it down....  Callahan/Calahan ....  and I liked the one L version better because it looked like a name and not a surname. 

So Calahan it ended up being ..... 

So I'm watching TV the other night and there comes up a preview - John's new tv show.  "In Pursuit with John Walsh."  This will be airing on ID - btw - if anyone is interested. 

So during the preview I see this kid and it's Callahan - John's son and I'm all.... "HOLY SHIT!!! That's the guy who Calahan got named after!"  So I hollered for Cal and Tina to come in here - and I showed him and I was like.....  WOW .... (turns head to the side) .... he kinda looks like you! LOL ...

(Pictures of the TV during the preview) 

Just for shits & giggles....  Callahan (Walsh) and Calahan ...  side by side....  LOL

THE END .....

Woes of Insomnia ...

The most fickle beast I know ......  goes by one name, and one name only.  I'm sitting here yawning at my computer desk, I'm about to crack open my writing software and start working on Chapter 3 again...  I haven't pulled up Chapter 3 in a couple of days, which is not what I had planned this week.  I fell like I did nothing today....  but sleep... because I can't sleep at night, but I don't get exhausted until 4 or 5 AM ... and then I crash.   I'm sitting here yawning every couple of minutes and yet..... I've already been to bed, already tried the whole going to sleep thing...  I've taken my meds, done my insulin ... but I seriously think I am in need of sleep meds...  like, legit cuz....  I have such a hard time turning things around.

There are days where I seriously try so hard to just stay awake all day, and I do.... and it's so I'll go to sleep at a reasonable time...  and it never happens.  For the longest time I was good, I was going to sleep before 1AM - which for me is like going to bed at 9PM... and there were nights I would end up falling asleep at like 7 or 8 PM ... because my body is so eff'd up...

So literally, I stay up, for over 24 hours...  and 10 or 11 PM hits, and you know what happens?  I get a who needs to sleep wind and I'm up all night......

FML ... I just want to sleep ...

That is an actual picture of me......

In addition ...  X-Files was AMAZING tonight.... .

 I loved it..... loooooooooved it!!

DB and I also watched an episode of Catfish tonight ...  new episode tonight ... I think it was Alyssa & Tyler?  I know Tyler is right ... anyway ... the poor kid Tyler kinda reminded me of Noah.  This is gonna probably come off wrong, but when he first showed up in person, I wondered if he had Downs, he had a bit of the face features I'm used to seeing.... and before freaking out on me (if you don't know) I have a Trisomy child as well ... Noah is my Mosaic Trisomy 16 child.  Tyler seemed rather awkward, not comfortable in social situations, etc and so on.  I think I figured out that he doesn't have Downs, so then I wondered if he is somewhere on the spectrum... because Noah has Aspergers ... but regardless, the kid reminded me of Noah... and at the time only 3 years older than Noah (Tyler was 19, Noah will be 16 in a few weeks) ...  so it kinda broke my heart.

In situations like that, where it's very clear that the kid or person isn't comfortable being who they are because it seems or feels to them like no one accepts them, and just want to feel like someone likes them for who they are and not what's on the outside, it kinda breaks my heart.  It really does.