Janky Box

Did you know that today is International Woman's Day?   No?  Why not!?  Don't you support the feminist movement?  (snickers) ....

About International Women's Day (8 March)

International Women's Day (March 8) is a global day celebrating the social, economic, cultural and political achievements of women. The day also marks a call to action for accelerating gender parity.

International Women's Day (IWD) has been observed since in the early 1900's - a time of great expansion and turbulence in the industrialized world that saw booming population growth and the rise of radical ideologies. International Women's Day is a collective day of global celebration and a call for gender parity. No one government, NGO, charity, corporation, academic institution, women's network or media hub is solely responsible for International Women's Day. Many organizations declare an annual IWD theme that supports their specific agenda or cause, and some of these are adopted more widely with relevance than others.

"The story of women's struggle for equality belongs to no single feminist nor to any one organization but to the collective efforts of all who care about human rights," says world-renowned feminist, journalist and social and political activist Gloria Steinem. Thus International Women's Day is all about unity, celebration, reflection, advocacy and action - whatever that looks like globally at a local level. But one thing is for sure, International Women's Day has been occurring for well over a century - and continue's to grow from strength to strength.

Just in case you were wondering......

I just wanted to post that picture of Deadpool!

I have had a rough day.  Very very rough.   Fever, stuffed up sinuses/ears ... SEVERE headache (migraine) ... etc and so on.  Basically I have the flu.  Influenza A has been making a comeback it seems.  I have seen several of my friends fall with the plague the last week..

I'm so thankful that Kaedyn is over it ...  but now it's just my turn....  I guess....

So Nathan had a really rough morning. He was crying like he used to cry when his anxiety was picking up too much with the thought of going to school and before he was to the point where he was making himself throw up - because he was being forced to go into the main stream classroom when he shouldn't have been (I was being told he was spending all but two hours or so in the inclusion (special needs) room and then in regular classroom for a couple of subjects. The teacher he had then, he didn't like - he has light up shoes, he stops them when he needs some sensory input and she would tell him to stop doing that - so he would cry. He would say she was mean. When we brought this up to his inclusion room teacher (who is supposed to have his back) she blew it off. So this is why we pulled him out to homeschool him. That's what happened before. Lately he's been showing this same anxiety about going to school again but we haven't really questioned him on it much. Fast forward, today he was carrying on to the point where she was almost to that making himself vomit point. So we managed to get him out the door to the bus and off to school. I guess shortly after getting to school he wanted to talk to the nurse because we tell him he has to at least TRY to go to school. So the nurse ended up calling DB and ended up telling him that with some talking, Nathan is having anxiety about his day at school and that's why he's having stomach aches (this doesn't explain the other stuff going on with his stomach, like his waking up after starting his feed when he's sleeping and throwing up with his feed. That's a separate issue.) So because I caught Kaedyn's plague - DB took the reigns on this and he called Nate's pediatrician and got him in right away today to talk about maybe putting him on some anxiety meds.... so Nate's coming home with Daddy now. He's getting put on a small dose of anxiety meds to see if it helps.

Daddy sent me these pictures while he was out with Nathan...

Nathan being vain in the mirror ....

So I spent a lot of my day sleeping and watching Little Women Atlanta (didn't realize it started again.)  I like the new girls.   Regardless... just been trying to keep the fever at bay and resting.  The sooner this is over - the better.

We were supposed to go to Tacoma today to go to see Nathan & Noah's Endocrinology doc but that had to get rescheduled (thanks flu!) ....

Marshmellow's personality has changes since he got the big ol' snip.  He's more playful and seems a lot calmer ...

Alyvia has literally been stuck up my butt today - probably because of my being sick and her wanting to be comforting.

Best part of today - other than waking up to meet another day and being able to hug and snuggle my family, and laugh .....  the best part of today was getting my new shipment of FANDOM stickers...

So here is the run down......   DB ordered a couple - I added the two Hunter ones for him, all World of Warcraft related....

Cal found out and asked for these ....

The rest though, are ALL MINE.   So this is the group of general "Fangirl" ones and "Book" ones... miscellaneous stuff ...

A couple Game of Thrones ones....  (I am a Stark girl through and through, I love my IMP, but I love Khaleesi) ...  Hodor has my heart forever - I still yell "TOO SOON" whenever DB makes a "Hold the door!" joke.  And he calls me his Moon just like Drogo does Khaleesi...

Gilmore Girls.........

These are Greys Anatomy

Pokemon Go

Harry Potter

FANDOM... Sherlock, Doctor Who, Supernatural, Harry Potter....  and it's fun picking out all the different ones from the "I didn't choose the fandom life, the fandom life grabbed my hand and whispered run"  one....

Sherlock one....

Doctor Who ones..... the heart one are quotes by Amy Pond and Rory ....  (larger below)

And a few World of Warcraft ones for me!

THANK YOU REDBUBBLE.COM ... you rock!

Bubba and Alyvia & Marshmellow ....  he gave me the plague ....

This cat and his boy.....

So watching TV tonight....

So as I'm writing my blog (after watching the season premiere of Survivor) I am watching Catfish and I have to say ......  I love Max & Nev.

Today they start off the episode throwing production under the bus with the make-shift table in their room... that is set up on some "Janky Boxes" ..  no really, one of them is named "Janky Box" ...

"Up top it's all glossy and nice, but underneath it's just a couple of janky boxes" ....

This just made me laugh so much.  It actually says "Janky Box" ....

So I watched Little Women Atlanta today (almost caught up, I didn't realize it had started up again.) ... DB and I checked out this new show called "The Pop Game" or something like that... it's interesting... watched the season premiere of Survivor... Catfish...  watched the movie John Wick ... and started the new season of Criminal Minds: Beyond Borders.

I do hope to sleep at some point tonight.

(PS: I went to get the Red Bubble website and ended up putting more stickers in my cart! it's an ADDICTION!)

Not Good.... Feeling So Not Good ...

We went to bed last night knowing that there was at least going to be a two hour delay to school today.  We woke up to school and college both being canceled.

I was like "YAY My husband gets to stay home....... "  quickly followed by "CRAP the kids are too."

It's not so bad.  I love my kids.  LOL.  My whole thing is - they have sooooooo much energy, and I have sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo little energy.  Like non-existent.  Literally.  Today I slept most of the day.

So yesterday, I called up the place where I'm supposed to get my CT scan done to try to schedule it.  I got this nice lady, and she's taking all of my information and looking me up and she says "Well we haven't gotten the referral yet, so that usually means that the doctors office is trying to get the pre-auth done."  I had been warned about this, so I wasn't totally shocked.  She told me she'd call the clinic tomorrow (today) to see where things were and call me up tomorrow (today). She asked for a good number to call me at.   The clinic was closed because of the snow.  Of course it was.

Regardless, I did get the call today and I got my CT scheduled for tomorrow.  Good.

Good.

But the kids were something else today.  Let me tell you ....... Yesterday - it was fun!! We went out and played in the snow and took pictures.  If I had more energy and knew where mittens were, we could have made a snowman.  But I didn't have the energy.   Regardless.....

I am definitely somewhere between the two of these.  Right in the middle.   I can snap at any moment.

There was a lot of playing Guess Who today.  I slept a lot too.  Cleaned a bit.  Dictated cleaning anyway ....

I didn't eat much today.  I just couldn't seem to eat and every time I did, I realized ....  I would get very nauseated after.

This is how I would love a snow day to be for us.  And maybe next time.  Maybe I'll work through whatever bug or issue this is and just finally feel better.  It would be nice, for sure.

Instead, this is about where I am......

Nathan and I have fought over my laptop today.  I really want to get into SIMS now that I have more content.  But I have to fight with Nate.  I need to get him out of the electronics and doing something other than watching YouTube.

Anyway - I did get a chance where I got on SIMS for a bit.  But I just wasn't feeling well that I let him have my laptop a lot today.   So I decided to create our family.  So this is DB, Me, Noah, Cal, Kaedyn and Nathan.  Not sure why or how the teens got to be as tall as the young adults.  So yeah.  LOL... anyway - I figured I was going to create Kale, Shila & the girls as their own family since you can only have a max of is it six? or eight?  I think it's six isn't it?  I'm having a brain fart.

Still didn't get a chance to play much.  I finished creating the family and that was about that for me.

Livvy finally stayed in her new cat bed for more than a half second.  Maybe she'll start to enjoy it now.  Probably not though, she's a cat.  There for she isn't going to do anything I think she'll do.

Feb. 6 - Feeding Tube Awareness Week ~ Day 2 ....  BLESSING.   Not only is it a blessing that this is even an option, to help Nathan gain weight that he can't seem to gain on his own because he burns whatever calories he consumes instantly breathing it seems.  But it's also a blessing because it makes giving him his large amount of meds easily.  The day of crushing pills and hiding them in frosting (no, I'm not even kidding) are over because everything just gets crushed, mixed and pushed on through.  

This was on my time hop today ........  I really love this.  The photo, the saying, everything.......

"Hey, Did You Know You Are Sick?"

Okay so I have been watching MY KITCHEN RULES ... and it has some of my favorite people like... Curtis Stone and Cat Cora!  I do love Lance Bass though ... he is a hoot on the show.  (Yes I just said hoot.  I have a migraine as I'm writing this. Leave me alone...) ...   So anyway ...  I was watching this early this morning.... and for this episode they came to the home of David Arquette and his wife Christina.  And I couldn't help but to think this....   if you didn't know, he was married to Courtney Cox (from Friends) .. and I saw him with his new wife and I was thinking .... CLEARLY he has a type, because she looks soooooooo much like Courtney it's not even funny.

I got up after the show was done to use the potty, I made the mistake of looking in the mirror... oh hellllo there ....  SO ...  here is some wee hours of the morning bed head amazement ...

Went back, still not sleepy - so I start watching The Irresistible Blueberry Farm which I taped yesterday.

Her grandmother dies and she wants to solve this one last mystery .... I guess her Grandma and her would play these games... so this one she wanted to do - one last time.  A letter she found.  She was going to deliver it.  She gets to this small town hours away, she's taking photos and she falls in the water and she's drowning and all I can think is ...... GET THE CAMERA!!!!!  IT IS FALLING ... SAVE THE CAMERA!!! Yeah ... I'm not a photographer.  And then I continued to wonder...  if anyone saved the camera.

It was a cute movie.  She's kinda sorta engaged - maybe sorta kinda about to be engaged...  and she keeps kissing this guy who is not maybe sorta even remotely engaged to.  Shame shame shame....  JUST KIDDING ... she only kissed him once after he "saved" her and then avoided kissing him until she kinda figured out what she did want.  Found she wanted something completely different than she thought ...  and she learned a few amazing things about her grandmother.

I started watching this too..........  not that I have much of an interest at all in Slenderman, but it is something my kids talk about, it's an urban legend and this was the story behind my name becoming infamous ....

Here is a bit of the SLENDER MAN  background I found HERE ... (copied and pasted)

There are legends and myths that have been around for centuries and have seared themselves into our minds and culture. Then there are those that have been brought to life by way of modern technologies reminding us of nightmares that should have been buried and forgotten. One such legend is known through internet popularity as Slender man.

The creature known as Slender man is said to have the appearance of a tall, lanky man in a black suit. Not so scary, right? 

He towers at six to seven feet with unusually thin limbs. His face, if you can call it that, is featureless and white, though some say that it can morph into whatever you fear the most. His arms, however, can stretch out to grab his victims and bend in unnatural ways with long, talon-like fingers used to scratch at the windows of children. Yes that’s right. While he haunts everyone who has the misfortune to see him, he prefers to devour those that are 16 and younger. He is also said to have multiple arms sometimes seen as long tentacles used to ensnare whomever catches his eye, or should I say, the void where his face should be.

The Silent Stalker, Slender Man

Slender man is a silent stalker that likes to hide in plain sight and is usually spotted in wooded areas where he could blend in amongst the trees and dark corners of the forest. When he finds his victim of choice, he follows them home and upon being seen through the window, can use a form of hypnosis that compels you to walk right into his spindly arms. Usually glimpsed at a distance, once he’s close enough to get a good look at, that’s when he slinks into your home appearing in dark hallways or blank t.v. screens.

American legend says that he was once a man who was tortured viciously, first being beaten with a log, then impaled with a 2 foot stick and hung from a tree with his arms and legs pulled from their sockets.

When captured, you will wake to find Slender man standing above you. He will ask one question and if you’re lucky and get it right, he breaks both your arms and legs. But if you are wrong, then he slowly sticks his fingers down your throat pulling out the heart. In circles on the internet Slender man is claimed to be the creation of a website called Somethingawful.com. Many say that this alone debunks the mysterious legend and closes the case on the creature’s fictitious existence. Well, not quite.

It appears that the Slender man myth goes back a lot farther than is claimed. He is based on something called Der Grossman, meaning “tall man”, which is the Germanic version. Legend says that children would site him in the Black Forest days before their disappearance. All that was left behind would be the mutilated remains of livestock and in a few cases, village inhabitants would be found several miles from their homes impaled on the higher branches of the trees.

Romanian Tale of Der Grossman

A Romanian folktale tells of twin sisters Sorina and Stela that were led out into the woods one day by their mother. They could see Der Grossman close by, waiting dressed as a nobleman, his arms boneless as snakes and sharp as swords. The mother, under the order of the creature, told her daughter Stela to cut a circle in the ground with a knife and have Sorina lay down in the middle to be cut open. Stela refused and ran home to hide under her bed. When their father returned home, his terrified daughter told him what had transpired and he then went into the forest to track down the twins’ mother. The girl fell asleep to be awakened by a knock on the door. “Open the door, it’s your father,” a voice said. The girl refused. “Open the door it’s your mother,” the voice continued. Upon refusing once again, the door flew open to reveal the horrible sight of her mother holding the severed head of her sister Sorina in one hand and the head of her father in the other. “Why?” cried Stela. “Because,” said her mother, “there is no reward for goodness in this world, nothing but cold steel teeth and scourging fire for all of us. And it’s coming for you now.” At that moment, Der Grossman, or Slender man, slid from the fireplace clenching the surviving twin in his burning embrace. And that was the end of her.

Internet fiction or not, Slender man indeed has horrifying origins and lore from the old world. What makes this myth so fearful is the fact that to this day, people are still questioning the existence of this humanoid creature. Websites flooded with people claiming to have had sightings of him especially those that live near wooded areas. Even more terrifying is that he has been known to imitate the voice of a human calling out your name in the dark. And it seems that the more you talk about or research Slender man, the more likely you are to encounter him bringing life to a supposed legend.

All I can say is, now I have a new reason to be afraid of the dark.

In 2014 two twelve year old girls decided it would be a great idea to stab their other twelve year old friend NINTEEN TIMES trying to kill her stating that if they didn't Slender Man was going to kill their families and it was their way of protecting their families.   Of course, this happened in Wisconsin too.

I think Slender Man is best known for the character on Minecraft.  I'm not sure if I heard of the urban legend prior to the game - or not .... but yeah.  It's ... weird.

Anyway - the girls did it, they both immediately admitted it (I think) and they were just weird about it all.  I thought it was the other girl who initiated it ... but no, it was the girl that I share a name with.  Thank god mine isn't spelled the same.  just KILLS me....

Anyway - I fell asleep during it - ahahahahahahhahahahahaa.....

So I got up this morning - to go to my doctors appointment, and I opened my door to find this girl sitting in my doorway.  Usually she's downstairs with my step-dad and Jaxson is ...  Ely Mae has been coming upstairs more when my Step-Dad is gone to work, but he was home.  So it was a bit odd.  Love this girl though.

I got ready to go to the Doctors....... meh......

So my mom took me to the DR so that DB could go to class and I wasn't driving around a bunch.  I just haven't been doing well at all (health wise) and I haven't lost weight.  I hate that I gained 25lbs once I went back on the insulin.  I keep trying to tell myself that it's worth it to have my blood sugar under control at least better.  I can say I'm maintaining though.  It just sucks because one year ago I was down to the 190's and was SO HAPPY to be out of the 200's for the first time since I was pregnant with Calahan (so 20 years!) and I swore I would NOT get back into them, and here I am ... back into them.

I lost the weight, I desperately wanted the the damn diabetes to just go with it.  Nope.

Anyway ..  I did lose one pound.  Instead of 217 I was 216.  I had a low-grade temp of 99.6.  My blood pressure was 130/80.   We didn't really address anything other than the Pancreatitis and how it hasn't really gone away.  So I thought anyway.  He told me that my last set of tests, the enzymes were normal so I had come out of it.  So I tell him how I'm feeling, how it's hurting, what is going on...  I tell him how my right side is hurting and it's wrapping around to my back.  Anyway - after a million questions, I kinda got yelled at for not going to the hospital on the 1st when I threw up.  So he wants me drinking only water or 7up for two days.  After that he wants me to slowly introduce jello and broth into my diet ...  This was something I did NOT want to do.  I do not do well when I can't eat.  He ordered a CT stat...  as soon as the can get me in. I got more blood work in.  And he's referring me to gastroenterology.

My Mom was all "I'm gonna be on your ass now" ... lol .. thanks Mom.  She's retired for one day and she's already taking over.  LOL ....

Went home and was just feeling like crap.  I came home, took a nap.  DB ended up coming home... he's worried about me.  He stopped, got my meds... brought them home.

When it was time to pick up the Littles from school, I went with.  I ended up sleeping most of the time I was in the van.  It was hard because I feel like I barely even get out of my room and yet whenever I do, I am so very crazy worn out.  I have so very little energy. The only way I can conserve my energy and mostly function is to just hang out in bed most of the day.  I can push myself through a lot of stuff... but sometimes, I just can't.  And when I can't, my body just shuts down and I sleep.  I don't want to sleep during the day, because at night when I take my pills and hurt a little less, if I have slept - I can't sleep.  Either I am sleeping all the time, or I can't sleep until I hit the wall of exhaustion.

It's raining today ....  typical Washington weather ...

So I got home and I pulled all my nausea pills out of their blister packs and put them in the pill bottle, because when my stomach is rolling, the last thing I want to do is fight with a blister pack.

Of course my Jaxson is loyally by my side.  I love this dog.  I really do.

Later into the evening I start feeling better.

SIMS 4 got another update.  We got a new shirt for an Anniversary gift for SIMS being around for 17 years now!  Woot.  Also got a new loading screen.

My Mom got the boys their Valentines cards.   Nathan picked out this one....

Kaedyn picked out this one....  

And she got them some stickers too.

Cal helped me get med ready tonight, and when he was getting the air out of the med syring for Nathan, he got it all over the ceiling ......... oops! LOLOL 

So I ended up falling asleep around 7pm.  When I woke up a couple hours later, I sat up and I saw....  Marshmallow fluff?  Really?   Where did that come from??  

I've been having a Supernatural marathon binge today....

I finished up SEASON ONE....

16 "Shadow"
17 "Hell House"
18 "Something Wicked"
19 "Provenance"
20 "Dead Man's Blood"
21 "Salvation"
22 "Devil's Trap"

And started SEASON TWO ...

23 1 "In My Time of Dying"

I have to say that I'm pretty sure I never watched the first season.  Like, I don't remember any of it.  I love the Winchester boys, I always have.  Even after I stopped watching it.  I didn't stop watching it because I didn't like the show anymore...  I just didn't like that it had less and less to do with the paranormal stuff, like the urban legends and the ghosts, etc... but it turned into more of a biblical horror ...  and two, every year one of them dies.  It always happens, and SOMEHOW they come back from the dead. It started to feel like a soap opera .... only you don't have to wait ten years for your favorite character to finally come back. I thought this all started in the later seasons, the dying repeatedly thing....

I really hope that I'm not going to be asleep forever tonight....