Well I am 12 weeks... a little over, unless you go by the ultrasound "due date" in which case I'm 12 weeks today, but right now I'm sticking with the 20th...... wow........ baby changed a lot from 11 to 12 weeks .. lol... ... I am feeling pretty good still ... it's just weird to not be miserable right now. LOL... I'm so use to pregnancy=miserable... LOLOL. Is this a sign it's a girl, like many of you have suggested? .... eh, we'll see I guess. Only time will tell on that on. I'm not so sure we'll know by Nathan's birthday if it's a boy or girl... my next OB appt is April 11th and I'll be almost 17 weeks then, the amino has been done at 16 weeks both times with Noah and Nathan... so, I was thinking I need to call in and talk to my DRs PA and see if we can just schedule the amino for April 11th also, and that means we won't get the results back until... the EARLIEST ... April 21/22.... Nathan's birthday is April 19. Soooooo .. yeah... it's gonna drive me C-R-A-Z-Y ...... oh well though - huh? I swear I have been feeling the little bug bumping around... oh and for those who have asked, the *baby* has two sites really .... one being my blog I rarely write in.....
http://bearwolfden.blogspot.com/and then the website like I have set up for Nathan's ...
http://baby2008.aboutmybaby.com/ password is: baby2008
for anyone who wants to see Nathan's who hasn't ... his is ...
http://nathanpatrick.aboutmybaby.com/ password is: 51307
I just updated both of them yesterday morning....
Anyway .......... funny story.... we went to Olive Garden last week (before we found out we'd have no money ... ugh!) ... and it was just Dennis, Nathan and I ... well we tried the big boy highchair (there) for him and he sorta bumped around... but he was eating crackers and bread sticks (at least chewing on them) ... anyway - Dennis had a 5-cheese ziti or something like that ... and Nathan was in his lap... Dennis was dipping some bread in it and Nathan was watching him... and then he dipped the little piece of breadstick he had in it.. lol... anyway he LOVED the sauce on Dennis' food and Dennis gave him some on his finger - and everytime Nathan ate it he would growl - meaning he wanted more... it was so cute. I do have a very bad picture of them on my cell phone...
Now let me tell you about my little Dr. Pepper Bandit... lol... if anyone leaves a can of Dr. Pepper on the floor (like Daddy does) then he goes and steals it..... and a couple days ago, silly Daddy had a can on the floor with some still in it... well, Nathan got a taste and liked it... I watched him... made a little bit of a splash.. but ... he went back for more! LOL...
Nathan... speaking of the little stinker... he fell out of his crib two days ago. This is one of those, I'm a horrible Mommy moments... lol... so we got home from running around today and laid Nathan down for a nap - well he had other ideas and wasn't real pleased with that one. Dennis laid down because he has a bad head cold right now and wanted to sleep a little. That's fine... So I was hoping after Nathan fell asleep I would go join Dennis and take a little nap of my own while the older boys occupied themselves. NOPE ... WRONG... Nathan was fussing, obviously not happy with the situation in any way. Instead of going and rescuing him from the evil crib monster, I went in my room and laid because Dennis for no more then 5 minutes... before hand, stepping in Nathan's doorway and watching him for a good 30 seconds to a minute... he was not moving - just softly whining... so I thought, there might he hope, he may just fall asleep. Poor over tired little boy. So, realizing the crib side was down, I had a moment of ... "oh I should put that up" but didn't ... figuring the sight of me would make him more upset .. and even though he has started to put his little hands on the rails when they are down, he basically has only been doing it to pull himself to the side railings, but not UP .... so... I figured he would be fine... so I walked into the bedroom and laid down next to my hubby... we talked a little... and Nathan started crying a little more... Dennis goes "he's not happy" ... I made some comment about the baby jail... and he laughed. I went to give him a kiss and get up to get Nathan and we heard this "BOOM-THUMP-THUD" and Nathan's crying get more intense. First I said "What was THAT?" and then I thought "OMG DID HE FALL OUT OF HIS CRIB??!!" ... sure enough, he did... I had jumped up 5 seconds after it happened and rushed to his room and Calahan was already carrying him out and I grabbed him. Of course Calahan heard me ask if he did and said he did... needless to say he didn't leave the guilty Mommy's arms for an hour about and didn't sleep until about 7. Good thing Daddy remembers to put it up...
"I'm pregnant.... pregnancy and having brain cells aren't compatible" ... That's what I said to Dennis the other day.... he retorted saying how he hopes it comes back soon because it's one of the main reasons he fell in love with me... lol.. how smart I am. How intellectual I am. I said "I'm sorry, my brain seems to turn to mush when I'm pregnant."
Friday was my first day since last Monday where I had no kids, other then Nathan, who were home sick... and ... I just DIED to get out of the house. I didn't care where, when, who, what... I just wanted O-U-T ..... I was even willing to go to Physical Therapy with Dennis.. yes it's sad, but true. So we ended up doing several things.. one being stopping at Best Buy to look at washers... see I've been limping my washer... the past .. year? I knew something wasn't *right* about it... the tub doesn't drain right. The clothes are still sopping wet when they come out... I'm sure it stresses out my dryer horrible... cuz I can never wring out the clothes enough. We also stopped at Walmart ... and... I don't even remember where else. Who cares... I go out of the house.
So onto random thought number 5013...
Anyone who knows me - truly - knows how much I love Nora Roberts... I am a avid reader .. collector (almost have all her books)... so explain to me why I have been sitting on her latest book for a couple of months now, and haven't got past, the first chapter really? Then there is my other book weakness... romances (or smut novels as I called them in high school) ... with babies on the cover (or even pregnant women work) ... I had over 200 books with those said qualifications. I have a major weakness for a cute baby. Anyway ... I picked up two new ones the other day. I haven't given into that weakness for ... oh - almost 2 years? So... why now? I'm pregnant... and I want to read. SO WHY CAN I NOT READ MY NR BOOK!??!! Sigh.... so my mission... read the book by next weekend. Think it will happen?? Stay tuned......
So Calahan has this friend... we'll call him *S* ... I'm not sure what to think of this kid. Honestly. He's a cute kids, you can see the potential there. But he straddles that line as far as he can, sometimes (more often) stepping over to the black side... and causing trouble... but now and then, you see the pain in this kids eyes. It's sad to doubt it's real and just a game... however I do. He is 10 (maybe 11) years old... anyway *S*'s mom is a single mom ... and called me early in the school season to ask me if when the kids got home from school, the days she worked, if they could hang out here for a little while until she got home... about an hour... I told her no problem. She offered to pay me, I told her not to bother. It's no biggy. *S* will come over and want to play - he likes it over here, which is fine... however, he treats Noah like crap some times... (Noah gets rather jealous when he's left out of the picture) ... Now, Noah does have the tendency to get a little out of control (crying, screaming, showing you his general dissatisfaction with not giving in) .. however he is NOT one to punch, kick, etc... *S* and even Calahan's girlfriend - have been known on occasion to wrestle, punch, kick, slap, hit, etc... they egg on the whole bad half of the situation. In regards to Cal's GF, I know she means well and just sorta gets caught up... however... I don't know about *S* he has a major temper problem. And he lies. Last time he came over (Friday after school) ... they came over (*S*, Cal's GF and her little sister) ... and they went downstairs to play... at 5:30 they were all sent home. All of them. Cal came back with *S* saying that *S* said his mom wasn't home. Fine... come back in for a little while. After a little while, some fighting between *S* and Noah .. Calahan saying he was being mean to Noah... and so I told them to go check to see if she was home yet. They went in the living room... somehow I hear the phone buttons being pressed... and so I guess they are calling. I hear *S* say that there is no answer, after a bit of a tug of war type fighting. After a few minutes - Cal was yelling at *S* and next thing I know - he marched his butt in the living room and called himself. I hear him talking, this is no more then 3 minutes after the first call was made. And then he comes in the kitchen - where I was feeding Nathan - and we were waiting for *S* to leave so we could eat... he goes "His mom is home, she says she's been there for awhile" ..... so Cal goes to walk *S* home... and *S* had already left, after Cal told him his mom was home and called him out on his lie... Cal says he said he hated him ... and so *S* stormed off home without waiting for Cal to get his stuff on. Fine - whatever I guess. Then Cal comes to the table and says "I know he was lying, he demanded the phone the first time I dialed the number for him and he turned off the phone before he put them up to his ear Mom" ... on one hand... I feel bad for the kid. I don't think his home life is exactly stable. He complains about his Mom's abusive boyfriend (so he says) ... and he refuses ADIMATELY to not be home when he is... it almost worries me. I mean *S* hates leaving my house, but usually he just stomps his foot, puts a little begging into it, but after a couple no's he goes home... the ONLY time he has ever fought with me about going home, has been when this guy is around. On the other hand, I almost want to wash my hands of this kid because there is a lot of darkness in him.
So anyway ... my van is fixed, and I got it back today. Dennis ... well there is good news on that front... his back isn't *fine* but it's not as bad as they thought. Seems his back is shaped like it is most likely because of a *birth defect* of sorts... and his back is the way it is to accommodate it... his back just has done what it has needed to in order to survive... I guess. He doesn't need surgery - thank the stars! What else... I'm not sure.. I guess that's it for now...... yesterday I spent ALL DAY cleaning and organizing my room. I hate cleaning - but I really want a clean house! LOL..
Now on my last note... I must discuss BB9/After Dark.... the Big Brother cast is out of control. Okay - I have to say it.... you see stuff on After Dark that no one should see! For example....James' penis... ahhhhhhhhh LOL... Two weeks ago there was a major group orgie ... of sorts... Chelsia and Natalie did a strip tease ... you saw all sorts of stuff (and body parts) .... and then the "fun" moved into the pool and everyone was kissing everyone ... except, Ryan behaved (he was in the pool but he behaved) ... and Shelia, Amanda & Allison watched from the kitchen window. On the show, they make it LOOK like there is possibly something going on with Natalie and Matt... when there ISN'T .... Natty and Matty (laugh) ... well, we'll just say Matty actually runs away from Natty and hides from her... meanwhile, he's kissing on Sharon (while she was HOH with Josh). And the relationship that IS going on in the house, they don't even TOUCH on... Chelsia and James have (I am pretty sure) had sex. James REALLY likes Chelsia and they are constantly kissing on each other. And between Chelsia and James... there is a rumored three some that happened with Allison before she left, because "she would do anything to stay" ... (what else.... racking the brain) ... OH Natalie..... she starts off as the "Stripper" slut in the show, showing her boobs, butt, etc and so on... she talks freely about the abortion she had 4 years ago because she was "too young to deal with it" ... and she has sqirted (no kidding here) breast milk across the room because she still has it. Now I know that once women get it - some don't ever get rid of it... however, if you are not far enough along in your pregnancy!?!?! Breast milk doesn't come in until the end for *most* women... so it makes me wonder if she didn't HAVE the baby and put it up for adoption or something, and would just rather people think she had an abortion for whatever reason. And NOW NOW NOW she is walking around the house talking about how Christian she is and carrying around her bible and spouting off stuff... I just find it rather annoying. And on last nights AD .. I heard that Natalie not only had one, but TWO abortions? Or didn't have the second abortion? Something.. because she was pregnant when she had her boob job done and was pregnant agian (after the abortion) and they wouldn't do the boob job if she was pregnant, so she took someone elses pee in so that she wouldn't test positive? So maybe she m/c because of the surgery? I don't know ... but WTH!?!!?!?! ... Ummm.... Sharon told the whole story about what happened between her and Jacob.... and Ryan explained a couple nights ago that Allison is a professional gambler ... she counts black jack cards...... bought her last house in CASH.....and Josh. .... oh my my my Josh... he's crazy. He puts everyone down, mouths off about their imperfections on looks and fashion, and carries on complete conversations by himself.... for example.... out in the hot tub on last nights AD... talking to each of the house guests and how they were in the game and if he would take them to the end... rolling eyes... and now, you get to vote one of the evicted house guests back in.... mawhahahaha ... its and individual game now... lol..