Thursday, April 30, 2015

Teaching Thursday

So I don't normally take pictures of homeschooling, I might do a few - here and there.  Usually I'm too busy trying to instruct two different kids, on two different things, at the same time.  That's about all I can do.  Just don't think to snap pictures.

Today - I did.

Homeschooling in PJs.... live and well.  LOL.  Cuz we were ALL in our PJ's today.


I usually have a bag of some sort of candy to use as bribery when things get a bit difficult.  "If you get this page done I'll give you two jellybeans!" It works for us.  Not the best thing, but I'm going with what works until we find something else.

Noah and Nathan both hate writing.  It's that point where they fight and fight and fight and well Nathan fights anyway.  But Noah is liking Math... so he melts down on me on the pages he has to write....  like here.....
 But once he starts doing Math he's okay.  (He used to hate doing math but I let him start using a calculator to check his work. That literally made all the difference for him.)

Nathan avoids work by giving the dog kisses.... um....  all up cleaning my teeth kisses.....

Noah doing math.....

Nathan is done.  "I tie-erd" (tired) ...  I begged, bribed and he just fake slept.  Then when that wasn't working, he resorted to a full blown melt down.

Does stress cause Diabetes to suck worse?

Later that night, beyond all the ... melt downs and feeding lunch and going out to play..... reading and writing and scary numbers......

Nathan got to put on his NEW DINO shirt.  It glows in the dark.  First thing he did was run in the bathroom and shut the door to check to make sure I wasn't lying to him.  He was very excited to see I wasn't.

His feed bag this night.  It got turned off half way through the night because he got stomach issues.





Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Whatever Wednesday ..... More like Crabby Pants Wednesday

Dear Gallifrey ....  we have chairs, couches, even beds..... and you choose to sleep on the the bathroom floor.....

My nummy nummy salad today ....

Kaedyn getting the crayons and such down to work on his homework (finish it off, it's due tomorrow) ....

Helping Kaedyn get it done....

So I have to tell you a little story about Marshmellow and Gallifrey ....  something happened between Gallifrey and Marshmellow and instead of being buddies like they have been.... well, have you ever seen that video of the hairless cat with the guy in the mask .... well you know that weird sound the cat makes?  That's Gallifrey every time he sees Mellow or thinks that Mellow is getting too close to him.  So every time I see something like this happen, I feel like there is still HOPE!!!

DB sent me a few pictures from work today.  I told him to stop because it was making me mad that this lady tears down her house every 3 months just to re-do it.... Especially because we desperately need a bigger house... to fit our whole family comfortably - so we can all help each other out - and have our dog....  and be happy.  And hearing that this person just basically throws away money redoing a perfectly good house...   It's not my house, it's not my money.... we'll do it.  We'll earn it.  We'll get it done.  But just .. ugh.  Can't blame a person if they have the money to do it, I suppose.  But at the same time you can't help but to think ... if I had that money....... but I don't.

Just be thankful this lady does this, right?  So my husband and kid have a job.  That's what we stick with.

Tonight's not very good feed bag art.

So ... today was rather ..... boring I guess.  I worked on some stuff with the kids.  Focused on a lot of Noah's workbook.  Got Nathan to do some work too.  But mainly worked with Noah.  Discussed a Science project we're going to do this weekend.  Talked about what maybe we could expect when we do it...

We're doing the white carnation in a cup of colored water experiment.  We're going to get a bunch of them, and do different colors.  And then later next week we're going to do celery.

Ended up working a lot with Kaedyn with his homework when he got home.  Just to get it done.

I was having a hard day.  Just a lot of pain and swelling up.  Traveling pain.  Weird pain.  It was an off day and my attitude was NOT the best.  Nathan was melting down A LOT and instead of handling it well, I just wanted to cry.



Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Terrific Tuesday

I decided that despite what happened yesterday, it wasn't worth worrying over it.  Because I can't spend time being upset and sad over something that is out of my control anyway.

So let's start out this post with :::: drum roll :::::  MEDICAL STUFF!!!   Oh the horror.

This is my fasting this morning.  This does not make me happy - at all.   I ate through out the day, salad, veg, decent dinner.  My sugar later in the day was ... 417.  I just don't get it.  I do not understand.

My eating habits haven't changed, if they have it's been for the better.  So .... explain this to me.

My sugars a month ago not on insulin....


This is my sugars NOW on insulin.  The only thing I can think of, is I started new meds.  Not sure, no idea - but I'm NOT happy ....



Usually Nathan and I do silly faces, but Kaedyn wasn't feeling well this morning and we did some funny faces.

Here he is in his new PJ's he just got .....

This was my lunch today ..... Salad, and celery ....

Homeschooling today included playing Kaedyn's favorite card game (math skills!) ...  I normally don't get pictures of "homeschooling" because I'm usually trying to juggle instructing two kids at once doing different things.

Kaedyn decided he wanted to make birthday party invitations today for his "birthday party" in September! LOL

He made Noah a Tardis on his!
So while I was dealing with homeschooling and sick Kaedyn ....  DB was sending me pictures from the job site.  He was like "This is a multi-million dollar house and the owners renovate it every 3 months."  His crew was there to demolish it.



They re-do EVERYTHING ....... EVERYTHING ....  OMG I would cry.  What a waste.  I mean - just don't do it for 6 months, we'll gladly take the remodel money....  sheesh....

Kaedyn came up with a Science experiment .... he wanted to measure how much it rained.  I let him run with it.  He took these pictures of his experiment set up .....

Yes he took this pic (above) ....   no, I have no idea how he did it.

He kept coming in and out with it.  He'd let it collect a little bit of water and then bring it in to show me... LOL... he wanted to sleep out with it so he could make sure no one stole it or took it or dumped it.

But while Kaedyn was doing his experiment, before I got the kids ready for bed.....  I decided to play nurse and I took DB's stitches out.  It'd been 13 days (12, 13 ...) ....  and save a trip and a bill .... and time.  If it didn't look good, we would have gone in.  Fact is, it looks great.

Got the kids ready for bed.  And just vegged with DB watching TV.  Really didn't have much interest to even be on the computer.  After DB went to sleep, I had an X-files Marathon....

Before I share the episodes I watched......  let me share this.



Sooooo excited!!!!

Quotes come from HERE and Plots from HERE....

Okay so I watched 6x11 Two Fathers ....

In a train car, doctors in chemical suits are making incisions on an unseen patient's stomach; green fluid seeps out of the wounds, which heal themselves. When Dr. Eugene Openshaw arrives, he is informed that their twenty-five-year-old project is finally completed. Moments later, rebel aliens begin to appear and start burning all the doctors, the only survivor being Dr. Openshaw. The patient, Cassandra Spender, had been missing for over a year. Walter Skinner takes her son, Jeffrey Spender, to the scene, where he meets with his mother. Cassandra refuses to talk with Jeffrey about what happened to her because she knows that he won't believe her. She asks for Fox Mulder (David Duchovny). Spender asks Mulder to join him to meet his mother, but Mulder sees it as an attempt to entrap him. Later on, Dr. Openshaw informs the Cigarette Smoking Man (William B. Davis) about the completion of the project, saying he needs to kill his former wife since she is the first successful alien-human hybrid. The Cigarette Smoking Man's reaction leads to Dr. Openshaw's death. Meanwhile one of the Syndicate elders is killed by an alien rebel, who takes on his form.

Mulder and partner Dana Scully (Gillian Anderson) go over the crime scene photos from the train car incident and immediately recognize similarities to murders from a year earlier. Afterwards, Mulder and Scully visit Cassandra who informs them that the aliens are here to destroy all life on Earth, further stating that this alien threat moves through the Universe to colonize other planets. She claims that a rebel force of aliens are mutilating their faces to prevent infection by the black oil.

Alex Krycek reports to the Syndicate on the rebel's recent attacks. The rebel, masquerading as the elder he killed, proposes that the Syndicate align themselves with the rebels. Cigarette Smoking Man seems to recognize that the elder has opposed his own previous opinion- that siding with the rebels is suicide.

Mulder and Scully use The X-Files office to find the Cigarette Smoking Man's real identity, that he is Agent Spender's father, C.G.B. Spender. Their unauthorized entry at the X-Files office is discovered resulting in both agents' immediate suspension from the FBI. Agent Spender reports to the Cigarette Smoking Man demanding the truth. Scully meets with Mulder, telling him that C.G.B. Spender is likely another alias and that the man is linked with Mulder's father, William, who he had worked with on a secret state project. The Cigarette Smoking Man decides to give Agent Spender more responsibility by having him kill the alien rebel masquerading as a Syndicate elder. Spender fails in his task, but Krycek comes to his aid and finishes. Krycek reveals to Spender that his father was responsible for Cassandra's abductions and that his role is to protect his father's stake in the project, facts that upset Agent Spender.

The Cigarette Smoking Man reveals everything to Diana Fowley, who agrees to help him. Mulder tells Skinner that Cassandra is in danger because she is the first successful alien-human hybrid; Skinner goes to the hospital to check on Cassandra but finds her gone. Cassandra, having escaped from the hospital, arrives at Mulder's apartment and demands that he shoot her because she is the embodiment of fifty years of work by the Syndicate — an alien-human hybrid that will trigger colonization if the aliens learn of her existence.



[A group of men are in a basketball court playing, including Mulder. He makes a basket; stops when Scully enters the gym.]
Basketball player: (to Mulder) Hey, Milk, let's play ball. (Mulder waits for Scully to walk closer; player is irritated) Yo, Homestyle, cough up the rock.
[Mulder throws the ball over his shoulder; catches it when thrown back and casually makes a basket.]
Mulder: Game.
Basketball player: (shaking his hand) Oh, no, no. Aw, it don't work like that.
Mulder: (joining Scully, ignoring the game) Hey, Homegirl, word up.
Scully: Mulder it's my distinct impression that you just cheated. And that you're not coming in again today.
Mulder: Oh, Scully, I got game.
Scully: Yeah, you got so much game I'm wondering if you have any work left in you.
Mulder: No, I'm ready to J-O-B just not on some jagoff shoeshine tip.
Scully: (VERY small smile) No "jagoff shoeshine tip"?
Mulder: (smile) No background checkin' jagoff shoeshine tip.
Scully: Well, about your J-O-B, Mulder somebody's been trying very hard to reach you by phone. Somebody who wants you back at the FBI ASAP.
Mulder: (more serious) About what?
Scully: About an X-File.



6x12 - One Son

Cassandra demands to be killed by Mulder but, before he can do anything, the group is quarantined by Diana Fowley (Mimi Rogers). Mulder, Cassandra, and Scully are taken to a Centers for Disease Control (CDC) facility at Fort Marlene, where Fowley tells the agents Cassandra is carrying a contagious organism. Meanwhile, Alex Krycek (Nicholas Lea) reports on Cassandra's escape to the Syndicate, noting that the alien rebels want Cassandra kept alive. However, the Syndicate decides to turn Cassandra over to the colonists and save themselves by commencing colonization.

At Fort Marlene, Mulder runs into the sickly looking Marita Covarrubias (Laurie Holden), who tells Mulder that she was subjected to experiments by the Syndicate to create a black oil vaccine and that the colonists will begin colonization if they learn of Cassandra's existence as an alien-human hybrid. Scully, with help from the Lone Gunmen, looks into Fowley's personal history and informs Mulder that Fowley has been collecting data on alien abductees and traveling to Tunisia every week, although there is no trace of her activities in FBI records. Although Mulder still trusts Fowley, he goes to her apartment to confront her.

Inside the apartment, Mulder's search for clues is interrupted by the arrival of The Smoking Man, who tells Mulder that he has been betrayed by Jeffrey Spender (Chris Owens), who is actually his son. The Smoking Man tells Mulder that, many years ago, the Syndicate agreed by majority vote, against Bill Mulder's objections, to align with the alien colonists in order to be spared during colonization. The Syndicate was forced to give up family members to the colonists as collateral so that an alien fetus could be given to the Syndicate in order for them access alien DNA. Since Bill Mulder was slow to agree, Samantha Mulder was not taken until after the others. Using the fetus, the Syndicate worked on creating alien-human hybrids who could survive colonization. The Smoking Man tells Mulder that colonization will begin once Cassandra is handed over and that Mulder will be able to see his sister again, providing him with an address to the hangar where the Syndicate members will be meeting the colonists.

Spender goes to the Syndicate's headquarters, only to find Krycek, who tells him that the group's members—with the exception of The Smoking Man, who has gone to retrieve Cassandra—are preparing to present the alien fetus to the aliens. Fowley returns to her apartment, where she finds Mulder. Fowley head to the hangar at El Rico Air Force Base, whereas Scully contacts Mulder and the two try and fail to stop the train car transporting Cassandra to El Rico. Spender arrives at Fort Marlene, where he runs into Covarrubias; she tells him to go to El Rico Air Force Base to find his mother.

A Syndicate surgeon attempting to procure the alien fetus is killed by one of the alien rebels, who assumes his form. Krycek finds the dead surgeon and the fetus missing, and tells Spender that the rebels are now going to succeed in their goals to halt colonization. The Syndicate and its families gather at El Rico Air Force Base. Shortly after Fowley arrives, a white light appears around one end of the hangar. It is revealed to be the rebels, who surround and immolate the entire Syndicate—except for The Smoking Man and Fowley—who escape by car.

The next day, Mulder, Scully, Walter Skinner (Mitch Pileggi) and Spender report to Assistant Director Alvin Kersh (James Pickens, Jr.) on the deaths of the Syndicate and Cassandra. Spender tells Kersh that Mulder and Scully could have prevented their demise, and recommends that they be reassigned to the X-Files before abruptly leaving the room. Heading to the X-Files office in the basement, Spender finds The Smoking Man, who first berates Spender for not being like Mulder and then shoots him in the head.


Mulder: (opening voiceover; about Cigarette Smoking Man and his father, Bill Mulder) Two men, young, idealistic - the fine product of a generation hardened by world war. Two fathers whose paths would converge in a new battle - an invisible war between a silent enemy and a sleeping giant on a scale to dwarf all historical conflicts. A 50-years war, its killing fields lying in wait for the inevitable global holocaust. Theirs was the dawn of Armageddon. And while the world was unaware, unwitting spectators to the hurly-burly of the decades-long struggle between heaven and earth there were those who prepared for the end; who measured the size and power of the enemy, and faced the choices: stand and fight, or bow to the will of a fearsome enemy. Or to surrender - to yield and collaborate. To save themselves and stay their enemy's hand. Men who believed that victory was the absence of defeat and survival the ultimate ideology... No matter what the sacrifice.
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Mulder: There must be some kind of mistake. I signed up for the aroma therapy treatment.
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Scully: (frustrated) They've burned our clothes.
Mulder: Hey... I heard gray is the new black.
Scully: Mulder, this stinks, and not just because I think that woman is a... well, I think you know what I think that woman is.
Mulder: (dryly) No. Actually, you hide your feelings very well.



6x13 - Agua Mala

In Goodland, Florida during a fierce hurricane, Sara Shipley and her son, Evan, desperately try to flip the washing machine but fail to do so as tentacles ensnare them. After receiving a call, FBI special agents Fox Mulder (David Duchovny) and Dana Scully (Gillian Anderson) arrive at the home of retired FBI agent Arthur Dales (Darren McGavin), the first to look into the X-Files. He tells them about the Shipley family and how Sara Shipley called him in a panic after her husband was attacked by something in the bathroom with tentacles. Scully is dubious about this but believes that something has indeed happened to the Shipley family during this hurricane.

Mulder and Scully go to the Shipley house and find the bathroom door barricaded shut, no sign of any people. The two have a brief run-in with Deputy Greer who believes they are burglars until Mulder disarms the man and Scully shows him her FBI ID. They attempt to go to the airport but are trapped by the hurricane. Elsewhere at the Breakers Condominiums, Deputy Greer encounters the creature after finding a dead man covered in a slimy substance on a toilet. Mulder and Scully later find the deputy's vehicle parked outside the apartments. Searching the building, they discover Greer on the ground, his neck covered with red welts. Mulder goes around the complex to find the rest of the people and warn them that the thing is in the plumbing. He encounters Dougie, a looter, Walter Suarez whose girlfriend Angela Villareal is nine months pregnant, and George Vincent, an anti-government Second Amendment activist. Mulder attempts to get Vincent to come out and join them for his own protection. Vincent refuses but, after being attacked by the creature in his apartment, relents. Mulder hypothesizes that the entity attacking them was driven from the bottom of the sea by the hurricane into the city's water system.

Dougie steals the deputy's wedding ring and knocks over a container of Epsom salts into the tub where the unconscious Greer is soaking after Scully removed several specimens from his neck wounds. While Angela Villareal relieves herself, she spots the creature in the tub with the deputy. Mulder and Scully enter the bathroom and find the clothes of the deputy but the man gone. Mulder theorizes that the entity does not just live in water but is a living form of water, becoming visible only when it attacks. He believes that the creature uses people as hosts to reproduce, with the body's water content being used to feed the growth of new creatures. Mulder realizes that everyone needs to evacuate.

Charging outside, Mulder is attacked by the creature in the hall. When he returns with the welts all over his throat, George Vincent slams the door and takes them all hostage, leaving Mulder to die in the hallway. Angela goes into labor and Scully finds herself forced to deliver a baby. However, water begins accumulates in the light fixture above them and the creature appears. It grabs George Vincent by the neck. Scully tells Walter Suarez to aim for the sprinklers, realizing that the freshwater kept the creature at bay, as with the deputy until Epsom salt was added to the water. Suarez shoots the sprinklers and saves Vincent's life. Meanwhile, Mulder realizes that freshwater is the key also, and runs out into the rain to heal his wounds.

The next morning, the creature has vanished, the newborn baby has survived and is healthy, and Mulder starts recovering quite well. After telling the story to Dales, he is relieved and felt that he would have not retired from the FBI if he had a partner like Scully. He decides to celebrate with the agents now that the storm is over; he asks them if they would like some water, to which they quickly reply "No!"



Arthur Dales: Oh, it's amazing. It's truly amazing.
Scully: What's that?
Arthur Dales: That you could come here in the face of a hurricane chasing a sea monster, yet, and end up bringing a new life into the world. And then slaying the monster and save this one's life as he was quite literally circling down the drain.
Mulder: (embarrassed) She didn't save my life, really...
Arthur Dales: Oh, yes, she did. Yes, with a gun to her head, no less.
Scully: (rationalizing) Well, you wouldn't have known to go out in the rain if I hadn't pointed it out that to you that it was the fresh water that killed the organism...
Mulder: No. No no no no... I-I saw the Shipley's cat!
Arthur Dales: Uh, well, I-I can't swallow that... No, no, no.
Mulder: I saw the cat, which had been saved which had been in the washing machine. And the Shipleys had boarded up their house which means that the only way they could have vanished was if the creature came up through the plumbing in a backwash of seawater. Seawater. And then the deputy who vanished from a bathtub full of Epsom salts.
Arthur Dales: If Agent Scully had not been there with you, I shudder to think what would have happened to you. I'd say you owe her your life. It takes a big man to admit this, but... if I had had someone as savvy as her by my side all those years ago in the X-Files I might not have retired. (both Mulder and Scully look a little embarrassed)


6x14 .... Monday - It's an X-Files Groundhogs Day

The episode opens with FBI special agent Fox Mulder (David Duchovny) bleeding out from a gunshot wound while Scully tends to him. They are revealed to be hostages in a bank holdup, and Scully attempts to reason with their captor (Darren E. Burrows), only to have him reveal a bomb strapped to his chest. The police begin to storm the building, prompting the gunman to detonate the bomb, seemingly killing them all.

Mulder then wakes, unharmed, to find that his water bed has sprung a leak, his alarm clock is broken, and he needs to pay his landlord for water damage. To do so, he is forced to go to the bank, instead of going to the meeting with his partner Dana Scully (Gillian Anderson), Walter Skinner (Mitch Pileggi) and various other FBI officials. When he arrives, the same gunman, named Bernard, arrives and nervously attempts to rob the bank, shooting Mulder in the process. The teller sets off the bank's silent alarm and police cars come rushing to the scene. Scully arrives and once again attempts to help her partner as he lies dying, but events go the same way - the police rush the building, Bernard detonates the bomb, and everybody dies.

Suddenly, the action starts over. Mulder wakes to find that his water bed has sprung a leak, his alarm clock is broken, and he needs to pay his landlord for water damage. To the audience, time itself is stuck in a loop. Everyone is oblivious to the repetition of events except for one person, Pam (Carrie Hamilton), Bernard's girlfriend. Over multiple iterations of the events, Pam does everything in her power to save the agents, including trying to prevent them from entering the bank, trying to inform them of the time loop, and even begging Skinner not to let the police into the building. It is implied that she has lived these events many times, as she refers to having had Mulder ask her the same question over fifty times. There are subtle changes in the events, and Mulder and Scully's conversation is worded differently each time, but the results are always the same: Bernard detonates the bomb, usually after shooting Mulder, and they all die.

The time loop continues ad nauseam, though each time Pam speaks to Mulder, he comes closer to being able to remember her. She is finally able to convince him that events are repeating themselves, and before he is killed by the blast, Mulder begins repeating "he's got a bomb" to himself, in an attempt to recall it the next time around. In the following iteration of the day Mulder finds himself repeating the phrase in the bank, and acting on his hunch, calls Scully and then confronts Bernard before he begins the holdup, changing events on a fundamental level. Scully, acting on Mulder's phone call, brings Pam into the Bank. Mulder and Pam convince Bernard to give up and walk out with Pam. The sirens of the approaching Police response become audible and Bernard becomes agitated and attempts to shoot Mulder, but Pam throws herself in front of Mulder as he fires. As she lies dying, she admits, "This never happened before." Bernard collapses to his knees, horrified by what he has done, and is peacefully arrested. The bomb blast averted, time continues as normal


Mulder: I know. I missed the meeting.
Scully: You didn't miss the meeting. You're extraordinarily late for the meeting. It's still going on.
Mulder: What are you doing down here?
Scully: We took a short break and I came looking for you. What are you doing down here, Mulder?
Mulder: (sarcastically) I'm having the best damn day of my life. Any moment I'm about to burst into song. (dryly) "Zip a dee doo dah." My, uh, waterbed sprung a leak and shorted out my alarm clock. (Scully looks surprised) My cell phone got wet and crapped out on me and the check I wrote my landlord to cover the, uh, damages is going to bounce if I don't deposit my pay. You ever have one of those days, Scully?
Scully: Since I've been working here? Yeah. When did you get a waterbed, Mulder?
Mulder: (he pauses, thinking; ignores the question) Bank's just down the street. I'll be back in ten. Cover for me, will you? (leaves)
Scully: (to herself) When do I not?

Mulder: I know. I missed the meeting.
Scully: Well, not yet, but, uh, only because it's the longest in FBI history.
Mulder: What are you doing down here, then?
Scully: Well, I came looking for you. We took a five-minute break (looks at watch) three minutes ago. Mulder, your cell phone's not working. (He glances up at her.) Did you oversleep?
Mulder: Scully, did you ever have one of those days you wish you could rewind and start all over again from the beginning?
Scully: Yes. Frequently. But, I mean, who's... who's to say that if you did rewind it and start over again that it wouldn't end up exactly the same way?
Mulder: So you think it's all just fate? We have no free will?
Scully: No, I think that we're free to be the people that we are - good, bad or indifferent. I think that it's our character that determines our fate.
Mulder: And all the rest is just preordained? I don't buy that. There's too many variables. Too many forks in the road. I meant to be on time to work this morning but my waterbed springs a leak flooding my apartment (Scully looks surprised) and the apartment below me so that makes me late for the meeting. Then I realize I got to write a check to cover the damages to my landlord but, as I'm walking to work, I realize that that's gonna bounce unless I deposit my pay. So now I got to go to the bank, which makes me even later.
Scully: (curious) Since when did you get a waterbed?
Mulder: I might just as easily not have a waterbed then I'd be on time for this meeting. You might just as easily have stayed in medicine and not gone into the FBI, and then we would never have met. Blah, blah, blah...
Scully: Fate.
Mulder: Free will. With every choice, you change your fate.

Mulder: I just got the weirdest sensation of deja vu. I've been having it all morning.
Scully: Well, that's fairly common.
Mulder: Yeah, but never to this degree. I mean, I woke up, I opened my eyes I was soaking wet... (Scully looks confused and curious) It's a long story but I had the distinct sensation that I had lived that moment before.
Scully: Well, you may have. Did you do a lot of drinking in college?




Monday, April 27, 2015

Oh my Monday ..... please go away.



This is how my day started out ............

Kaedyn screaming .........

He crawled into bed with DB and I at some point during the night.  A: He went to sleep around 5pm and didn't wake up until I don't know when in the morning.  B: He didn't have his allergy pills last night because he was sleeping, just figured we'd give it to him when he woke up to help him go back to sleep for a bit when he did, but we were asleep.

So totally woke up with him in our bed this morning.  DB got up and started trying to get him up for school.

1: he refused to wake up
2: by the time he DID get up - his bus was coming in like 10 minutes
3: he then refused to get dressed
4: forced to him to get dressed, he was kicking me while I was trying to get his socks on, he had his arms folded when we were trying to get shirt on and off.... refused to uncross them so we had to yank his hands apart....  oye this child
5: carried on and on and then his bus came and went
6: was screaming out the door then started screaming he had to pee - so he peed, gave me a hug and kiss and cried and cried ....
7: got driven to school

Bah!

Parents: 1 vs. Kaedyn: 0 .......  I think?

DB had an appointment today with a VA Doctor to discuss if his back issues could be service related.  The doc he saw seemed to think they could be, seemed to support it - but we've been here before so who knows.  He says his hip issues stem from the way he walks, because of the back issues.



I want this plant....  I think it's super pretty .... I know it's not a Bleeding Heart - but it looks similar to one .... and I forgot to look to see what it's called.  But it's pretty.....

This is pretty too.... purple plant.  The whole thing is purple.....

Healthy eating.  This is what I crave....  celery and salad and carrots.  The fruit is for the kids... I can't eat it - allergic.  The banana peppers are mine all mine - they go in everything.  Corns for dinner.... butter.... green onions for my salad....

I know I've gained some weight back, my blood sugar is out of control, which is funny - because it's MORE out of control since starting the insulin - then before.  My Diabetes is it's own entity living by it's own rules because it doesn't respond the way it should - EVER.   I eat pretty healthy, I try to - real hard - sometimes I just have to eat what is available... but it sucks.


Nathan's supplies showed up ....

UPS man was crabby....

shoves the thing at me "sign"

yes, sure Mr. Crabby pants

so sorry you had to put all these on your trolley and roll them up 20 ft to my door

he didn't even have to knock - I saw him pull up and knew it was Nate's supplies .... so I was standing outside waiting for him... geez.

No smile, no hello ....  I even jokingly said "I saw you coming" and he looked at me like I just ran over his dog.

Later - we were getting Nate ready for bed, and went to get a new tube...... well.... yep.  They forgot the extensions .... They didn't send me extensions ....  ( slaps forehead )

Daddy promised to pick up Kaedyn from school.   Then they had to stop at the pharmacy ...

They sent me these pictures.....



My friend - she cracks me up so much.  I told her - because everyone who is friends with her has told her, not just me, that she needs to write a book.  Just of her FB statuses.  So I told her that I'm going to start posting her statuses on my blog.  The Ginny-isms....   Here is Ginny-ism #1 ....



And then my Mom sent me the Puppy Destruction when she got home......  It's a daily game when she gets home of what did Jax destroy today?

He broke the cat tower, he ate the base!!  The eyes in the back is Ellie Mae and Jax is sleeping on the love seat.  Oye....

And then she sent me this, with the caption.  "I'm so hungry I can't even stand up" ....


Feed bag for tonight....  I drew the one - just needed a simple easy one - Kaedyn decided it was a firework and he drew other fireworks on the front of the bag. (I draw on the back, and the back is exposed when we put it on the pole for him to see the drawing) ....

Running a low grade again .....  I was running normal for awhile - now back to this.....



So yesterday my mom showed me this hard lump on her hand.  Not a wart.  It was hard.  She was worried, I could tell she was worried.  She went into to get it checked out today - I didn't think too much of it though.  Yesterday I did have a fleeting thought of "Geez I hope it's nothing serious."  So she messages me after and tells me that they biopsied it and are checking it for cancer.  Insert FREAK OUT here.

Mom plus word cancer - NOT COOL.

Now one, this is coming - piggy back - on the recent death of my Mom's best friend (or one of them) and the Mom of one of my really good friends (same person).  Heather and I grew up together from a distance, we have always been friends, always been close - even though she grew up in Georgia and me in Wisconsin.  They'd come up every summer, and I'd always look forward to it.   I mean we have known each other all our lives, literally.  We were just talking, my Mom and I, about how Heather and her Mom never had those conversations.  Which shocked my Mom, because Donna was a nurse.  I thought, we haven't had those conversations either.   Do we need to have those conversations?  I don't want to have those conversations, I'm not ready to have those conversations.  It's scary when you watch someone lose their Mother.  Their MOTHER of all people.  And not think of losing your own Mom.  What would you do?

My mom is literally one of my best friends.  I tell her just about everything.  I cry to her, I share joy with her, and so even the inkling of possibly losing her - yeah....  just don't even want to go there.

So when she told me tonight, it sent me into a momentary tailspin.   Do I think it could be cancer?  No.  But just the chance of it ... terrifying ....

It's my MOM.  My MOM.  My family is everything to me.  My husband, my kids, my MOM ...

I lost my exMIL a few years back (2012) ... and that was hard enough.  We actually got closer after I divorced her son.  That crushed me.  I bawled for days. DB cried too.  I don't like the way things happened.  It was kept from us.  She didn't want us to know, she didn't want us to worry, but we needed to know.  We needed to.  And by the time we found out, she was .... we'll say, not herself.  She had a large cancerous brain tumor that was rapid growth, and they thought she had a stroke - and then found the tumor.  Then had a follow up and it was inoperable.  Things went quickly with her. We didn't find out until the end of April or beginning of May that any of this was going on and she died in the beginning of June.

I know my Mom wouldn't do that to me.


Update Friday (May 1st)  ....  It's NOT CANCER ... yay.  Not that I expected it to be, but just scared.