Moaning to the Monday ....

I am not having a good morning at all. Managed to wake up at a decent time - ended up falling back to sleep - seems to be the norm right now.  Then the news I was dreading.  Super late last night Cal came in my room and Dublin (pup) was sick.  He was struggling to breath and was making some weird noises.  Took him in, ended up having a sudden onset of pneumonia?  I knew he probably wasn't going to make it after listening to him.  The worst thing was, he was FINE yesterday morning.  Fine!   I am really sad about this....

Anyway ....  I was up until 5am this morning.  Insomnia.  From 3am to 5pm I was writing though.

DANCE ...  <---  Writing Prompt #1 ......  I wrote 7 pages in 2 hours.  I haven't done that in a long long long long long time......

 Marshmellow graced me today .....  

You think the animals feel like I need comforting today?

 Poor Santa .... Jax is going to rip him a new one.....

Yep - this is happening....

Candy .....  (not my diabetic coma candy)

X-Files Marathon!   Only 3 episodes today though.....

So yeah, I'm a little irritated with some stuff right now.  We got Jaxson, saved him from uncertain death.   The previous people said they were going to put him down, I think though - it was more of a ploy to get someone to take him.  Regardless - he is technically Shila's dog.  He's the whole family's dog - because he lives here and we all bond with him and take care of him, but he's Shila's when it comes down to it.

So not long ago I got a FB message about how Jax is HER dog and no one elses.  It was this huge punch int he stomach vent.  I ended up getting really mad because she said something about training him to be aggressive and I won't have that - period.  Not in my house, not with my kids.  This is a fact I will not budge on.  Won't - period.

So I lose my puppy today.  I am still mourning my miscarriage. Just adding insult to injury type of thing.

So Calahan comes into my room tonight and he is talking about how Shila kicked the dog.  I make him explain further before anything and it turns out she pushed him with her foot, not kicked him.  I have done the same thing at times.  He is a big heavy stubborn dog sometimes.    So I was going to leave it alone.  She came in here though and says "what was he saying?"  So I told her.   She goes "Wahh not his dog."  To which I said "Well regardless, you shouldn't kick him" to which she says "Wahh not your dog either!"  I was taken aback.  I told her - again - "shouldn't kick the dog."  Instead of saying "I didn't even KICK the dog, I pushed him with my foot" .... to which I would have responded - I've done the same thing at times..... she says, again "Wahh not your dog."

As if kicking the dog is an acceptable course of action.  I know that's not what she did, but that's not the point.  She has admittedly said she doesn't know how to train a dog, and that this is her first dog, etc and so on....  but this type of response is just bullshit.

I sent Kale a message, and I copied it and pasted it in her message and told her - this is what I said - so you don't think I'm talking behind your back.  Yeah - I'm irritated.

Fact is one of three things.  1: Jax is locked up in their room all the time because they don't like the door open and that's not good for a big dog like him.  2: They lock him OUT of the room with his food and water in there - and she constantly yells at him for eating the cat food in the kitchen - yet they don't provide him with food he has access too all the time.   So they lock him out and who's taking care of him?  Not them.  3: They are gone, and we're taking care of him anyway.

I have absolutely NO PROBLEM with taking care of him, even though he is - when it comes down to it - her dog.  We are all bonding with him and everyone loves him, he's a great dog.

But why the hell should I bond with a dog when I'm constantly being reminded that he's NOT MY DOG.  I swear - one of two things is going to happen.  I'm gonna tell her off and tell her he's NOT going to be her dog for her lack of respect for him and for us.  Or TWO - I'm going to refuse to have anything to do with Jax.  Show her exactly how much we help out.

It's BULLSHIT.

We're the one who's getting his stuff, his food, etc and so on.  It seems like every time she turns around she's yelling or whining at him.  It is just pissing me off.

She can't take care of a dog, but she has a baby on the way.  Someone needs to grow the fuck up.

My biggest thing is - if she thinks it's okay to treat an animal like that - and when my kids pick up on how she treats him and THEY start doing the same thing, there is no one to blame but the example she set.

I ended up making this today .... I have one that I did up (different picture) of the 14, never updated with the 15th I guess ... so I made this.  This is hitting me hard. I am not sure why it's hitting me harder ... not sure.... just... yeah....

Now .... Kale came into my room early this morning ...  like before I even went to sleep.  He says "I just heard the most racist joke ever" ...  and he proceeds to tell me.  We'll just say it makes reference to white people "owning" people.   So slavery.   I have to tell that part in order to tell the following story.

So he tells me the joke and he's like "do you get it?" after.  I'm like.... staring blankly at him, and eventually I am like... "yeah, of course I get it."

He says "Good, cuz Shila didn't" .... he laughs.  He says "I had to explain slavery to her and I was like, why don't you know this? You should have learned about this in history."

I said "Apparently .... she was learning about other things ... like....." and I tried to think of the most trivial thing I could think of and the first thing that pop'd into my head was ..... "bubblegum" ... ha ha ha ...  so I said it.

He's like where the heck did that come from?  HAHAHA ....  I'm good at random.