11 Weeks

Today in Graphics......

Today was a bit tough for me.  On top of some feelings being brought up to the surface from an outside source, I feel absolutely gross with my psoriasis.  I feel rather like the gross ugly leper duckling who's useless and a burden and not worthy of anyone...

I am very thankful for a husband who understands my need to communicate and vent.  Not that I think anything was actually validated today - but ya know.... it is what it is.  Working on a marriage is a constant thing.  There are always going to be ups and downs and what is very true is how you come out on the other end.

Oh - right ....... and on top of it, one of my good friends (at least I thought so) blocked and deleted me today on Facebook.  I mean - really - what gives?   Oh well I guess :(

FIRST LOST TOOTH!

Double entry day ... woohooo..... yep yep ...

So two days ago, Nathan announced he had a loose tooth!  This is his first (not removed by the dentist) ....  so it's super exciting!!!

Well, yesterday he could push that sucker almost all the way out of his mouth!  We did a video, it's on our youtube channel .....   but here it is for anyone who wants to watch.  Um excuse the burping...  but at least he has manners! LOL


Well, this morning, he wakes me up and tells me -- "I LOST MY TOOTH!"

I guess Daddy and him were on the computer this morning, and he was playing with it, and all of a sudden Daddy heard something hit the desk.  It was Nate's tooth!!  LOL....  Nathan grabbed it and immediately put it under his pillow!!  Oye....

day 39 of RED SPOTS ....

Today is day 39.....  I still have tiny new little red spots .... so I'm still breaking out, the pain is actually getting worse every day.  Mostly it's that my skin is stinging... and the constant itching.... and it hurts to move!!  I can't deal with fabric, I mean - seriously - if it wouldn't traumatize my family I would likely run around naked.  I can only wear one pair of PJ's right now (the teal ones in a lot of the pictures) ...  I try to wear other stuff, but I end up ripping it off and putting the PJ's back on.  It has to be super light material and smooth and cool (in a way.)  I only want to sleep with my sheet on, the comforter bothers me, but I seek the warmth too - so I have to have the sheet between me and the comforter.... and I'm hot, always, hot.... again, it's SEVERE GUTTATE PSORIASIS, and I am miserable.   The outbreak started December 17th (when I first noticed it) and I've been keeping documentation for the progression of it ...  the spots are starting to meld into each other....

I am starting to see pictures.....   for example, my psoriasis loves me......

 I have been doing a lot of research because I'm trying to figure out if Guttate Psoriasis can turn into Plaque Psoriasis.  Although I never found a clear answer.   So the following are screen shots from my phone that I wanted to hang onto ..... so if you aren't interested.... you can stop here.....

 So this.......  ^^^ ....... makes me really feel as if I am the cause and reason for my kids genetic issues.

Okay ......... really???  Less than 2% ......... what is it with the medical lotto and me????  Between me and the kids, this has got to stop....  

I have been really trying to educate myself.....   oye.......

Random........ Thursday & Friday

Nathan has been having a hard time lately .....  yesterday he had a bad bad day :(

 Yesterday Kaedyn (who had gotten up in the middle of the night and asked for medicine on his skin - which he NEVER DOES - he usually fights me ....  but his skin was hurting because of his Eczema ... so he ended up staying home.) .... was drawing with Bear (cat) near by watching.... thought it was cute.

Bear love :)

I got bored .....  

Bear got his nails cut....

Marshmellow in the window

There is a filter on my phone that naturally pops up called "Beauty Face" ... on the left is the filter and the right is without .....  yep....  I like that filter.   Makes me look like Snow White :)

Today - Kaedyn took it upon himself and declared that he was going to work in Nathan's workbook.  Ha!  I didn't want to fight him - he LOVES to do school work.  So I told him fine, as long as he wrote his name on the pages so I knew it was him and not Nate.

 Pretty much every page he did had to do with Math..... lol....  he is my Math lover.....

And then he found the answer pages.... oooooooooh dear.  Need to rip those out! LOL....

I like making silly faces...... don't you?

A little bit of CUTENESS ...

Clairah came for her visitation yesterday with her Mommy :)   She hangs out with me a lot while she's here and sometimes I take a lot of pictures (like last week) and sometimes I only take a few.  Sometimes Claire and Mommy take off to go spend time with her family and that's what they did today.  

Regardless ... Clairah came and hung out with Nonna and was petting the cat (Gallifrey) ...  "Nice kitty" ....  

Later she tried to feed him some toast... LOL... (it's there on his fur.) .... She was very proud of herself!!  With peanut butter on her face... heehee...