19 Years Ago............

So last night I posted this on FB ....

Once upon a time a teenage girl found out she was pregnant. This terrified and excited her along with a hurricane of emotions. She had a lot of "why don't they tell you this?" moments. 19 years ago ... labor started and the bundle of baby blue was on his way into the world! That boy is now the same age as that girl who gave birth to him. HAPPY SOON TO BE 19TH BIRTHDAY CALAHAN! I will be in your room at 7:56 am to tell you every detail of your birth! 

Cal: Ummm ocword and thanks

Me:   Awkward? You mean? I will tell you about the suction sound of you going back in and the fact I had to break your shoulder to get your fast chubby behind out and how I almost had a heart attack when they told me (after you were out) I still had to push out your placenta! Holy shit! Talk about tramatizing! Muahahahaha

Cal: Or just making me laugh Un-tramatizing

I really didn't tell him every detail of his birth, I have told him a lot through the years but ..... I totally should traumatize him like that.

Today .... I posted this on Facebook....

Today my first child, the one that made my wish come true of becoming a Mommy, turns 19. He is now the same age as I was when I had him. Today is his first day going to classes at the college, and working to make his dreams come true. He's engaged to a beautiful girl, who is smart and well mannered, she's focused and kind, and we love her being an addition to our family. I have watched this man grow up from the tiny baby. Almost every first was done with him as a parent, (except the preemie, NICU, medical stuff) ... had my first parental heart attack when I got the call that they thought he had Leukemia at 2 1/2 years old.... (thankfully after bone marrow testing, he didn't) ... I watched him struggle with his ADHD, Bullying, trying to find his place, his anger with the divorce, his struggle with his step-dad, and feeling that he can't love him it would betray his Dad, but he truly loves DB as his father, and we all know it. We watched how he struggled with coming to terms with his bio Dad and the things he's done - to others, to him - and grow up into the most caring, compassionate, animal loving, car enthusiast, gaming, working to his goals, amazing man. He's always going to be my baby, but he has his wings, and he needs to fly. I love you Calahan Joseph ... you will truly be my first love, always. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALAHAN!!!

This kid, I swear.  He is amazing.  It's hard for me to see him at 19, because I was 19 when I had him.  I was a Mom.  He's not, and probably not going to go on that path for awhile yet.  Both him and Alana have goals, and dreams.  I'm glad they aren't hitting that path yet.  I don't regret it one bit.  All I ever wanted to be was a Mom.... and he gave me that.  I think I have done a good job raising him.  He's compassionate and kind, he is helpful and passionate....  he is amazing.  It's been 19 years.  WOW.