Regrets .....

You know how you get that question from people......  "Do you have any regrets in your past?"  

And I think.... I have to ....  sadly I've had a bit of a soap opera life.   

Do I have regrets? 

The SIMPLE answer is YES.... I do ....  

I regret not leaving my ex husband sooner.  I wish I would have left him when he cheated on me the first time, but I didn't.  I wish I had left him when he got accusations thrown at him and he was arrested.  I wish I would have left him sometime between then and when I did.  

I regret losing contact with some of my friends.  I miss them.  

I regret some choices I've made.  

But in all honesty - I'm not sure I would change anything.  We go through things in our lives to learn lessons about ourselves and those around us.  Sometimes hard times and bad things happen to make you a stronger person, sometimes to open your eyes about things.  I know that I can not control anyone but myself.  Everyone is faced with choices every day and sometimes, they don't make the right ones, but it doesn't make them a bad person.  Sometimes - people are just lost.  Sometimes, people are idiots.  But as long as I do what I feel is best for me, best for my family, best for those I love, then I have to have faith that I am making the right choices.

If I had left my ex when I originally wanted to, I wouldn't have Noah.

If I had left him the times after, I may have never met DB.

Things had to happen at the exact moment in those precise moments in time, to put me where I am today.

So do I have regrets?  Sure.  But I wouldn't change them.  I just wish I could talk to that ME and tell her it'll all work out.