Remnant of Death

Today I wrote this on Facebook .... I wanted to share here....

Once you experience loss, it changes you. When you experience it a multitude of times, feeling like you are losing everyone you are close to, what are you left with - but a broken self? Those who pass on don't want to see us crumble or fall apart at the seams, but rather enjoy life and be the happiest we can be. Yet it hurts to push past the pain to do just that because sometimes we feel as if life just isn't worth living without them. But it is, and it's good to remember how living our lives the best we can - is actually more of a tribute to the love we have for them, then feeling like we shouldn't be happy because they aren't here.

This is a rough week - it seems like death is in our faces right now. With the large amount of celebrity deaths over the past - 7 days or so, the death of a child that I was praying for that was super close to a friend, he was about the same age as Nathan, and that hit home for me, like a gut punch... and Kale's grandpa isn't doing well at all, his cancer just keeps spreading, and although I've only met him once, it hurts my heart a little, because I love Kale and things that hurt him, hurt me. (Not to mention, he seemed like a wonderful man when I met him.) And I know my lovely Heather is still struggling with the loss of her Mom, my Mom's best friend.

It's time to stand up and appreciate, love, and spend time with those that are important to us. You don't know what tomorrow holds. Just that there will be a tomorrow.

When you have kids with medical issues, even though you don't think of it - or you try your hardest not to - there are times it creeps in.  Like this past May, with Nathan.  I was oblivious to how close we came to losing him at the time, I guess DB was way more aware of it at the time, but I just wouldn't see it.  I didn't fall apart until after .... after he was safe at home.

But even Noah's close calls to death still haunt me.   They always will.

One can only hope ...  it'll never happen.

But it does.

Death happens all around us.  All the time...