Hi July!! July 1st Blogging Prompts ..... All About You & What is Important to You

So it's July 1st and I would like to sit back and really get into blogging again - I've been saying this the last couple years and I have done it for a few days and then BAM - I go stupid again ....

So I'm gonna try something out - to try to GET BACK into the habit of blogging again....  cuz I need some mental therapy and I can't afford to talk to anyone ... well, I mean, except my cat - but she won't sit still long enough.  And my husband's cat just sits around and literally judges everyone in the family all day.  They are both assholes.

But we love them so we allow the bad behavior ....

I thought maybe doing some prompts would help....  so, thought I'd do TWO ... (what am I thinking) ...

So ....... today.  first prompt is....

ALL ABOUT YOU 

So ...   this could take a year.  Like literally ....

Hi!  I'm Annissa Rae.  I am a Cancer (June 25th) ... I like long walks in the moonlight under the stars....    :::: sigh :::   Okay, I love the beach, the moonlight and the stars, but my body hates me and it hurts to move.  Like I can't even explain the amount of pain... but it's been my life since I was 15.  Ain't gonna break me!  It sure has slowed me down,

My family dynamic.  My grandparents were there to raise me while my Mom worked two to three jobs, going to school, and my Dad was in the Navy and him and my mom never were married.  I was the "oops" that happened between his marriages, he had two children in both of them, so five kids counting me.  I didn't meet my Dad until I was 5 years old and had a 3 year old little brother.  I was Grandpa's girl.  He was my everything.  I am the only grandchild (of my mom's parents) who remember him.  I was also really really close to my grandmother.  My mom and I have always had a great relationship too.... but I kinda raises myself - especially when we moved away from my Grandparents....  but our family was always close.  Mom has seven brothers, she is #2 out of the 8 children (living children) and she was the only girl.

I was my Mom's only child, my Dad's middle child, I was the youngest of my grandparents kids (and kinda treated like the little sister) and the oldest of all the biological grandchildren (years down the road there would be older step grandchildren) ....   so ...  I fit in all those boxes somehow ... and associated with them all - also....

Um....  both my parents are still alive, all my grandparents have died.  I was the apple of my Mom's parents eyes, and the stain on my Dad's parent's.  No, that's not fair.  My Dad's Dad, he was the typical strict Irish Catholic, and a child conceived and born out of wedlock was not to be considered family, I guess.  Once my Dad's Dad died ... well, my Grandmother (his Mom) reached out and wanted to know me and she got to meet Calahan and Noah before she passed away.

My Grandpa Larry (my Mom's Dad) died in 1987 - I was 11.
My Grandpa Raymond (my Dad's Dad) died in 1994 - I was 17
My Grandmother Berneil (Mom's Mom) died in 1999 - I was 21
My Grandmother Kathryn (Dad's Mom) died in 2006 - I was 29 (6 days before my birthday)

My Grandpa's (Larry's) death hit me like a freight train.  A.FREIGHT.TRAIN.  My Grandma (Berneil's) death - also - hit me sideways, but it was more expected. She had been really sick for months.  My Grandpa Ray's?  I honestly didn't know the man, never met him, but it still effected me.  It was still kinda hard.  But it wasn't the same level.   Then when my Grandma (Kathryn) died, I got mad about.  She died on the 19th of June, the year I met my husband.  I had planned a trip to North Carolina to meet up with him and ... I think I left the day after she died.  I had a cell phone, my Dad had the number.  While in North Carolina, the day before her funeral, my Aunt got a hold of me and she broke the news to me.  I cried because I still wanted time with her.  I wish I had spent more time with her, made her more of a priority.  But I was shy and had social anxiety. 

My Mom is one of my best friends though, and I'm sooooo thankful for that.

Besides my Mom, I have a husband.  I have been married twice.  I was married to my ex husband for ten years, most of our marriage wasn't a good marriage, I didn't realize that, though, until I was out of it.  Unlike a lot of people (like my ex) ... I have full closure from that relationship ... I'm thankful for that.  My ex was proven to be NOT the person I thought he was.  Our marriage was filled with a lot of lies, and he did some horrible things.   I wish I would have left him when I wanted to, which was right after I got pregnant with Noah (Noah and Calahan are his biological children) but I didn't...  and if I had, I might not have met my current husband.  I might not have had Nathan or Kaedyn.   I wouldn't be here, in Washington - someplace I wanted to live - next to a man I love beyond measure, the mom of four amazing boys - two of which aren't his blood but they are his son's.   He has a daughter that he adores but due to things not in his control, he doesn't have a relationship with.  He wants one, desperately.  I'll leave it at that.

My kids are 22, 16, 11, and 9.  I also have two granddaughters, not my blood but I tell you - it doesn't remotely matter.  I love those two girls to the moon.

What else....  ahhhhhh ....  I am a very very creative person.  I am a writer, I'm a photographer, I recently started painting ... I also recently started drawing. I play World of Warcraft and SIMS ...

There are a lot of medical issues in our family.  Noah and Nathan were both preemies.  Noah was 1lb 12oz and Nathan 3lbs 4oz ..Noah has a rare Trisomy and various other stuff.  Nathan has no umbrella diagnosis but it's something choromosonal (his Genetics Doc says) .... I have Fibro, Diabetes, Psoriosis, significant back issues and various other not fun crap.  My husband has Fibro and some very very significant back issues.  My oldest has a bleeding disorder.  My youngest has significant food allergies, environmental allergies, allergies to allergies, lol...  asthma and significant eczema issues....  I mean it's a lot.  But it is our world....

78UY777.  <--- HI from my asshole cat (Alyvia aka Livvy) who insisted on walking across my laptop!!

My favorite number is 13, mentioned that.  I don't like coffee (and I live in Seattle basically, they may kick me out) ... I love watching murder shows (ID & Oxygen anyone?)  A&E - Live PD and Nightwatch!  Ghost hunting shows...  and Hallmark Mysteries & Movies is my JAM!  I love all the series movies on there.  I really don't like Lifetime, it's turned into the murder all men network.  LOL...  Ummmmmmm....  oh and reality TV is like... my guilty pleasure.... I mean, you name it - I most likely watch it.  Housewives?  Yeah some of them...  Survivor, Amazing Race, Big Brother, Southern Charm (all of them) .... Teen Mom... oh yeah.  Top Chef, Hell's Kitchen, Masterchef, etc and so on. I do have some I have tried watching and just aren't into ..

So ...  in addition to my Mom, I have a step-dad....  I also have a sister, named Heather - she is actually the daughter of my Mom's best friend and when my Mom's best friend died, Mom went down and said she was her adopted daughter now.  We grew up together, so it's not that far of a stretch.  We have been super close and not so close ... just because of situations, like she resides in Georgia and has for most of her life.  I was in Wisconsin.  We'd have summers together a lot though.  Then we've gotten really close the last few years again.  I'm thankful.

I also have a sister-in-law I'm really close to - Sam, and my niece and Goddaughter Myra.  I love her to pieces.

There are other girls I consider family too, sisters, Cathy, Sarah, Jenna ...  <3 them all.   They are my support system.  110% ...

I'm lucky ....  🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀

and second prompt is ....

WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU 

Nothing is more important to me than my family.

Beyond that...  it's my laptop (which has my photos and my writing on it)

Then my books....

And my phone... LOL....

And I am love food, I am a food snob thanks to my husband...  I really don't like eating out (although he likes the break in cooking) ....  the best thing about marrying a trained chef, the food! <3